alexz

Saturday night Alex and I went to Hidden Soul's goodbye party at Grace's. Though it was kind of awkward at first to be around people I haven't seen in months, in the end it was a pretty fun time. I guess that's mainly attributed to alcohol. It was my first time drinking in about a month and a half... everyone's been pretty shocked that I quit partying for so long.

Last night I got to thinking...it's school time once again. Everyone's leaving for far away places or returning to something productive. Everyone except me, it feels like. I sat on my couch crying and blogging (so very lame) with Kyle next to me. He just staired at me like I was completely insane. I've come to the conclusion that I need to move away from here. I asked Amber today to come with me. Justin said if I need to get rid of Lynam he'd be happy to adopt him. I ended things with Kyle today. Basically what it came down to was that I'm not really gonna be able to get into a relationship when I know I'm leaving... he said he understood. He responded by writing a song.

I called my dad... he said he's happy I'm moving away from here. I'm gonna call him tomorrow to tell him the cities I'm looking up. Right now it's just Cincinnati...but if Amber is coming with me then I want to go somewhere we agree on.

sigh.... I'm going out to the fair now with Amber...