A friend at work has asked me if I'd like to go to a Boxing show on Friday Night to watch his 16 year old Son fight. I'm a big Boxing fan, the guy who asked me is a good friend and I get on really well with his son. I feel conflicted because I'd like to see him fight but I'd also be happy if I stayed home and did my own thing. Part of me would like to go but I have real trouble with Anxiety whenever I go on nights out. So much so, that I avoid them at all costs. I feel anxious because people will be drinking and I don't, Anxious because there'll be people there that I don't know and I'm awful at meeting new people, Anxious because I always feel sick to my stomach whenever I go anywhere/or are in situations I've never been before.
I gave a non-committal answer when he asked because I know that if I said yes, I would regret it and then spend the rest of the week dreading it. Part of me is dreading him asking me again because I can tell he'd really like me to come but he doesn't really understand why I would not want to. I'm secretly hoping that it isn't mentioned again.
Is there anyone else out there, that has these kinds of feelings when it comes to socialising? I hope it's not just me.
I feel content spending time on my own but I realise that to some people it can come across as me being boring or miserable. I don't consider myself either of those things but I understand how it can seem that way.