alcoholiv

i hate it when we have conversations after we see each other. so much goes unsaid, even though we both want to say it. we just talk around it all. there are so many things i'd like to say all the time. i've said them, and they've gotten me no where.


it makes me want to throw up. i'm tired of sleeping alone.

my little family is restored, which is pretty much the best thing ever, because let me tell you, i was FUCKING BORED. holy shit. it's weird, because we're basically together all the damn time. i suppose that's what will happen when you live, work, and are best friends with one person. also, i dont have any other friends really. it's kind of funny. i used...
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crisis intervention.


again.


this time, this one hit too close to home. another friend locked up. but this time... it's my family. i'm all alone in this house. i miss her already and it's only 24 hours. i want her to get better. i want her to be happy. i dont want her to feel the way she feels anymore, and i dont want the...
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insomnia sucks.

i'm going to call the Maine SPCA tomorrow because they have an advertisement in the paper about needing help at their horse rescue farm, which is only 15 minutes from my house and would be an amazing job.


i need something rewarding. summer is almost over and i'm not driving to ogunquit in the dead of winter, THAT i am sure of. fuck...
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so im pretty sure that i'll NEVER understand the male of our species.

situation:

boy sees you at bar. figures out that your best friend is seeing his roommate (via myspace, of course, just like EVERYTHING ELSE). asks to be introduced. boy is very attractive, intellegent, and likes the same movies/cartoons/tv shows that you do. of course, you are smitten, but keeping it cool. (it's...
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eh so i've had a weird week.

admitted some intense feelings that i've been harboring for someone that i shouldnt have been. long story. but it sucked anyway and really threw me for a loop. it was a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders, but it still really... sucked.


anyway, jess, joe, and i are going camping tomorrow, and im fucking psyched. not psyched...
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