bleh. last night was fun. i have a fuckton of bruises. i hope i didnt make an ass of myself. oh well. i'm not trying to impress anyone. a boy i liked was there... with his new girlfriend... ehhhh. whatever. not a huge loss. fuck it. saw some friends i hadnt seen in forever, had some laughs and a few good drinks. danced my ass off, to the extent that im pretty sure i pissed off every 14 year old that was there. haha. yessss.
then a friend came over. i hate having feelings for people i know i shouldnt have feelings for. it's going no where and i know it. it was going no where over a year ago when we were "seeing" each other. and yet... i cant stop myself.
massochism at its finest.
fuck. i need stability. i need something healthy. i need a fucking change before i get really mad some day and push down too hard.
ugh. class tomorrow, and i only read half my home work. oh well. i'll catch up tomorrow night. it's not like i'm doing anything after work, anyway.
then a friend came over. i hate having feelings for people i know i shouldnt have feelings for. it's going no where and i know it. it was going no where over a year ago when we were "seeing" each other. and yet... i cant stop myself.
massochism at its finest.
fuck. i need stability. i need something healthy. i need a fucking change before i get really mad some day and push down too hard.
ugh. class tomorrow, and i only read half my home work. oh well. i'll catch up tomorrow night. it's not like i'm doing anything after work, anyway.
cuz i did see tons of kids outside that one
good to see a cute hard core chick in maine
your a wonderful rarety