alcoholiv

my little family is restored, which is pretty much the best thing ever, because let me tell you, i was FUCKING BORED. holy shit. it's weird, because we're basically together all the damn time. i suppose that's what will happen when you live, work, and are best friends with one person. also, i dont have any other friends really. it's kind of funny. i used to have something to do or someone to hang out with constantly, and now, it's pretty much down to just her on a regular basis. we sit at home, watch law and order, and talk to our cats. what a way to spend a friday night! we tried to have people over for a welcome home party, but no one showed up. only one person called to say he wasnt coming, which is fucking lame (not him not coming, he's got a good reason and he's the best everrrr!!!!). i think that maybe i need to start being more "social" or something. maybe stop being so shy all the time. although, i guess i wouldnt classify me as shy. i think that i used to be SO close to a group of friends that have since moved 300 miles away, that i dont know how to relate to other people. we spent every second of our spare time together, and if we werent together, we were either text messaging each other, talking online, or talking shit to each other on the band's message board. we were all each other needed. then the band broke up, and they moved to NYC. so now i only see them every couple of months. it's fuckin torture. i miss them all the damn time. dont make fun, i was 18 and awkward. man, the old days. when my life revolved around these people. it's so hard to think about now. so many good memories, so many bad memories. mini tours to new york, going to cbgb, getting fucked up, going back to queens and getting more fucked up... having my heart broken about a thousand times in 4 years... meeting lots of people with similar interests... the trips to boston... our friends from boston coming up for visits. i wish i had a life still. ha! my life revolves around the camera shop. seriously. it's gross.

eh. i dont feel like being on the nerd anymore. blaaaah. and then there's this:


ha!