alcoholiv

so, it's almost 1:45 in the morning. I have class at 8:45, and i cant sleep. i've got a rockin' headache. it sucks. the guy that i went on the date with went a step too far last night trying to find out where i was. creepy. luckily for me, 3 of my best male friends live less than 5 minutes away from me (one lives literally one house away). im not scared. plus, i own a pitbull. who is gonna fuck with that shit? lemmers loves his mom. heh.


that's him pretending he's tough. he's cut a little dog butt.


the whole thing with that guy i went on the date on bums me out. i've been trying to expand my social rhelm a little bit. i think i've been too focused on the same people for way too long, and it's unhealthy. i need to stop dating my friends, that's for damn sure. it never works out well, because i tend to be friends with the same kind of person, who just so happens to be unable to commit, kind of jerky, and probably a lush. since im trying this whole sober thing, getting myself involved in these types of situations is probably a really bad idea. i need to focus on positive things right now, otherwise i'll lose it. living alone has been awesome though, so relaxing. i think i need it right now. i also like not living in downtown. being in the center of everything was awesome for a while, but eventually it lost its charm.

it's just weird. i havent been in a relationship, like a real relationship, for over a year. and my last long term relationship ended 3 years ago. i'd like to think im getting close to being ready for one. im so back and forth on them. i cant decide if i really want to be tied down. i dont know if i would even know how to make one work anymore.

bleh.
im going to watch the brak show.