Damn why do I do this to myself I go out to eat with my ex whom I have told I still care for deeply and what happens I come away from it feeling depressed imagine that. I know its all my fault all of it but does she really have to talk about her new relationship really, even after I have told her it makes me uncomfortable. All of this is crap I do feel a strong connection and would love to be able to be around her but just am not sure if I am to that point yet. I just cant help but want to be back to the way things were when I am around her so I have to cut ties till I can handle things O well enough of the sad whinny shit onto the fun stuff. The Hangover was fucking amazing loved it so so so funny it had me rollin the whole time. Well hope to get into some trouble tomorrow well see what happens . Well I am out for the night. 