akirali

I hate this shit. It seems so unreal. But it's true. My best friend is in a coma 1200 miles away. I can't even imagine it. Thinking about her in that hospital bed just doesn't seem right. I can't imagine her laying there on a respirator. I don't know what to think, feel or do right now. But as lost as I am now, I'd be even more lost if she were to take a turn for the worse. It sounds selfish, but she is my best friend, and dammit she needs to be ok. She needs to be better. She needs to live.




I know I should be stronger, but I can't. I can't put on a happy face, or be the pillar of strength that I'm supposed to be. I'm crumbling. Her family and other friends, especially FrozenSunshine are being so much stronger than I am. I wish I could do the same. But I can't. I love that girl so much.
She is such a wonderful young woman. An amazing spirit, a lover of life and nature, a great friend I could talk to about anything at anytime.

This is so unreal.