I talked to a friend last night that I hadn't talked to in a while. He's going through a really, really rough time. His troubles were spurred by something that shouldn't happen to anyone; but seems to happen to too many people. Between the shit that's happened to me in the past and t the shit that happens to my friends, it kinda makes me wonder why I want to have a relationship ever again. Color me a cynic, but shit is not fucking worth it. Now I just have to convince my heart and mind of that.
Continuing on the fatalistic depressed note: here's to late 2004 through 2005. A 15 or so month roller coaster that saw me broke as fuck, have my heart broken, have one of my closest friends start to get really heavy into drugs on a suicidal spiral, the same friend disown me on a couple of occasions, have multiple friends get hurt in ways no one should ever be hurt, have my best friend end up in a coma after a car wreck and suffer brain damage, had me suffer a severe nervous breakdown and suffer from bouts of deep depression for several hours almost every day of my life since July 2nd, saw several of my heroes in the world of entertainment die, brought me boughts of deja vu from what was previously the worst span of time in my life (Buster_Hymen, remember that span of time when the whole Zoe/my dad dying/Celeste thing was happening? That's how I've been feeling for the last 5 months or so. Fun times) and saw me start re-constructing the fucked up shell of isolation and self-hatred that I shed only a few years ago.
Fuck you 2005! If I ever have to deal with another year like you I will not be responsible for my actions.
2006 is around the corner? Good fucking riddance!
Continuing on the fatalistic depressed note: here's to late 2004 through 2005. A 15 or so month roller coaster that saw me broke as fuck, have my heart broken, have one of my closest friends start to get really heavy into drugs on a suicidal spiral, the same friend disown me on a couple of occasions, have multiple friends get hurt in ways no one should ever be hurt, have my best friend end up in a coma after a car wreck and suffer brain damage, had me suffer a severe nervous breakdown and suffer from bouts of deep depression for several hours almost every day of my life since July 2nd, saw several of my heroes in the world of entertainment die, brought me boughts of deja vu from what was previously the worst span of time in my life (Buster_Hymen, remember that span of time when the whole Zoe/my dad dying/Celeste thing was happening? That's how I've been feeling for the last 5 months or so. Fun times) and saw me start re-constructing the fucked up shell of isolation and self-hatred that I shed only a few years ago.
Fuck you 2005! If I ever have to deal with another year like you I will not be responsible for my actions.
2006 is around the corner? Good fucking riddance!
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My only gripe is that they didn't include Nightcrawler in this movie, which I find insanely lame. Since he was the high point of the last movie. Although...Kitty Pryde finally joining the team should be awesome. And Beast...man....he looks damn good.
I need to stop geeking out about it...because its not going to come out for months.
i went to see my psych guy next time i catch you online i'll have to share with you his diagnosis, i'm still laughing, and i needed a laugh after all that bullshit. i am now taking 2 drugs for depression yay w00t yippie joy
it seems like everytime i get screwed over my depression gets worse and i get another med to take. i'm not liking the way this is working out you know? hopefully though, it will start to really kick in. it's supose to enhance what i am already taking but it is some serious shit and a little unsettling.
i plan on keeping up better than i had been. we'll have to make a rule though something positive must be said everytime. some of this we need to take in our own hands!
take care j!