fuck.
Fuck.
FUCK!
Fuck.
FUCK!
Those of you in the Deleware Valley area might've heard a loud, violent thudding sound shattering the silence of your early evening constitutional around 5:30 tonite. I appologize. That sound was me kicking the living shit out of myself after striking up a brief but insightful conversation with a lovely young record store employee, yet not asking for her name, number or presence at a...
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fu:
Funny. ...uh, sorry, not funny.
Anyway, I gotta tell you, I love Stevie, I love Jennifer Tilly and I got to meet Lucy Liu on the Chariie's Angel's 2 set. She was really sweet, really small and HOT.
Peace and happy holiday
Anyway, I gotta tell you, I love Stevie, I love Jennifer Tilly and I got to meet Lucy Liu on the Chariie's Angel's 2 set. She was really sweet, really small and HOT.
Peace and happy holiday
supernovice:
I'd love to hear both songs... I stop in here and read your journal from time to time - I think you've real talent.
...And brother, if she's an employee at the shop - just go back and ask her...
Prolific? Maybe... But I find if I try to write two pieces of work at the same time, they both suffer, neither come out profound, they may both be okay, but they won't leave ppl thinkin' - maybe you can work through it, but I can't...
...And brother, if she's an employee at the shop - just go back and ask her...
Prolific? Maybe... But I find if I try to write two pieces of work at the same time, they both suffer, neither come out profound, they may both be okay, but they won't leave ppl thinkin' - maybe you can work through it, but I can't...
As promised heres some more info on Brookelynne. Heres here mailing adress if anyone wants to help her out:
D. Ward
240 Danforth St.
Apt. 305
Portland, ME 04102
D. Ward
240 Danforth St.
Apt. 305
Portland, ME 04102
saturn1:
i hope she is doing ok, thanks for the info
huny:
no doubt...that poor dear...so glad she and the baby are ok though...
Enough of my bitching. I dont really have any problems. But Brookelynne does. If you havent heard yet, her mom's house burned down the other day and she was living there at the time. Thank god no one was hurt, but she lost a lot of stuff, and her baby's due in a few weeks. Bottom Line: the girl needs our help. Im tryin to...
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christ, i hate being the way i am. Being all bipolar and crazy seems like fun when you decide to be a creative individual and do stuff like write. But during the other 99.9% of my life its a fucking pain and a half.
no specifics. No elaboration. Just wide-eyed wonder at how i can almost hear my emotional state shifting nowadays.
I feel kinda...
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no specifics. No elaboration. Just wide-eyed wonder at how i can almost hear my emotional state shifting nowadays.
I feel kinda...
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Most likely this will be the first cut we record for the album
Belladonna Pt. I
By Akira Li of the R*E*F*
She's almost intangable, a waking dream walking through sunbeams
Everchanging chameleon becomes whatever you want her to be
She's your fantastic fantasy but depressed manicly
She's your perfect girl but sacrifices her identity
Looking for the love her daddy never showed
And she...
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Belladonna Pt. I
By Akira Li of the R*E*F*
She's almost intangable, a waking dream walking through sunbeams
Everchanging chameleon becomes whatever you want her to be
She's your fantastic fantasy but depressed manicly
She's your perfect girl but sacrifices her identity
Looking for the love her daddy never showed
And she...
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kris7:
Deep, like woah. For real. Especially the last four lines. Was this the girl you told me you were working on a song about in your comment in my journal about that girl who ran with the wrong crowd?
saturn1:
very nice!
i know, my chances of getting a decent job in my field make me want to cry... chances are i'll have to move and even then it's competitive. i'm wondering why we are all forced to go to school any more, or feel like we are, when it's not for much?
i know, my chances of getting a decent job in my field make me want to cry... chances are i'll have to move and even then it's competitive. i'm wondering why we are all forced to go to school any more, or feel like we are, when it's not for much?
fuck!
i did it again. Even though I promised i was hanging up the cape for good. Superman just got unretired.
In the past I made a habit out of helping young women with self-esteem and other issues realized thier worth, potential, and helped leave the boys that treat them wrong. However after several years of my good intentions being abused by girls who just...
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i did it again. Even though I promised i was hanging up the cape for good. Superman just got unretired.
In the past I made a habit out of helping young women with self-esteem and other issues realized thier worth, potential, and helped leave the boys that treat them wrong. However after several years of my good intentions being abused by girls who just...
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VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
brookelynne:
dont let em pull you in if theyre leeching your energy, im sure the ones who really needed you appreciate your efforts, plus its good karma! 
brookelynne:
elephunk is pretty fabulous actually-its very commercial compared to their other stuff, some have called this album a 'radio' or 'hit factory' kind of thing, but its definitely decent. Its fun in a dance music kind of way, very peppy but not so deep. sometimes music can just be music and I think this album is just for the music. The last track on the album-thehidden track?-is amazing. its very...multifaceted..different languages, different genres of music, different messages. its a big fat modge podge happy cd. i like it
As I'm sure everyone is gushing here, the HBO segment was great. I gotta tape it when its on next though; because The R*E*F* was over in our full trifecta glory and i was auditioning new beats for them at 2 am EST i didnt actually hear much of the peice. But it'll be on again soon.
3 great things:
1: I get to watch...
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3 great things:
1: I get to watch...
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kris7:
Yes, I dig the new SG shit. The HBO thing was a lil short, but lots of fun. Glad to hear your group is in full effect.
Questoin: what does R*E*F* stand for?
Questoin: what does R*E*F* stand for?
brookelynne:
aww too bad you cut your hair, I'm sure it looks great though, I combed out my dreads a while ago and now I'm going to grow a massive afro for my next SG photoset. I'm going to get down with my nappy headed self. NO more straightening, or dreadlocks, at least for a while anyway.
Hey, you would be the coolest guy ever if you sent me a copy of the SG HBO thing. I don't have HBO and I feel all left out. I'll send you something cool if you do
yay for only three days of work!
congrats on getting the ball rolling w/ the music stuff!
aww too bad you cut your hair, I'm sure it looks great though, I combed out my dreads a while ago and now I'm going to grow a massive afro for my next SG photoset. I'm going to get down with my nappy headed self. NO more straightening, or dreadlocks, at least for a while anyway.
Hey, you would be the coolest guy ever if you sent me a copy of the SG HBO thing. I don't have HBO and I feel all left out. I'll send you something cool if you do
yay for only three days of work!
congrats on getting the ball rolling w/ the music stuff!
Im planning on going to see both Love Actually and Mona Lisa Smile by myself over the next month.
damn im a fuckin bitch yo
*edited to place the Loverly Ms. BrookeLynn back into my fav SG slot*
damn im a fuckin bitch yo
*edited to place the Loverly Ms. BrookeLynn back into my fav SG slot*
brookelynne:
i want to see love actually....does that make me a bitch too...?
cheesy movies are great, i havent heard anything about mona lisa smile yet.
cheesy movies are great, i havent heard anything about mona lisa smile yet.
kris7:
just stopping by to say: nice hoodie!
I have a very active imagination.
As such several times durring the day i will find myself daydreaming. Often the subject of my daydreams is suicide or self mutilation.
Why? My guess is i feel too trapped in my own life. Like my heart beat creates iron bars and my breath solidifies into concrete. I hate that feeling. I occasionally go on credit-hazardous spending sprees...
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As such several times durring the day i will find myself daydreaming. Often the subject of my daydreams is suicide or self mutilation.
Why? My guess is i feel too trapped in my own life. Like my heart beat creates iron bars and my breath solidifies into concrete. I hate that feeling. I occasionally go on credit-hazardous spending sprees...
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kris7:
Sorry to hear that you're feeling as down as you are. What I do in situations like that is read books about people who have it worse than me. Like Bill Shields for example: alcoholic parents, tramatized from serving in Vietnam, numerous failed relationships, an ugly divorce, and his first born daughter dying from compliacations caused by his exposure to Agent Orange when out fighting in the jungle. Nowadays he sits at his typewriter in a shitty appartment and purposely leaves his door unlocked hoping to take out his aggression on a would-be burglar in ways I'm not sure I could fathom.
I'm NOT trying to belittle what you're going through bro, I just want to offer some perspective. I'd hate to see you do something drastic to yourself.
Yeah, it's easy to become a BTS when you're feeling down. I'm guilty of it myself sometimes, but not in ways that get me into huge amounts of credit trouble. Try buying yourself some really, really really, loooooong books. The more challenging the better. Also, try to get books that can be read again and again and you get something more out of it each time. In short, try substituting heavy spending with heavy reading, or heavy anything for that matter.
good luck bro.
I'm NOT trying to belittle what you're going through bro, I just want to offer some perspective. I'd hate to see you do something drastic to yourself.
Yeah, it's easy to become a BTS when you're feeling down. I'm guilty of it myself sometimes, but not in ways that get me into huge amounts of credit trouble. Try buying yourself some really, really really, loooooong books. The more challenging the better. Also, try to get books that can be read again and again and you get something more out of it each time. In short, try substituting heavy spending with heavy reading, or heavy anything for that matter.
good luck bro.
Recient Guilty Pleasures:
Punk'd
I Love the 80's Strikes Back
All my delaware valley peeps hit the 1st Unitarian Church on 11/13/03 for the rhymesayers show!
go here for more info and tix
no, i make no cahs off of this but damn im amped to go and need to share with others
Punk'd
I Love the 80's Strikes Back
All my delaware valley peeps hit the 1st Unitarian Church on 11/13/03 for the rhymesayers show!
go here for more info and tix
no, i make no cahs off of this but damn im amped to go and need to share with others
alexis:
You missed the first page of my new journal!!
xoxo alexis
xoxo alexis
alexis:
Oh the next one will be coming out wednesday night (just a heads up... between 5 and 8... maybe you can be the first one!)
xoxo alexis
xoxo alexis
update:
my daily routine now consists of:
Retail management
Self Loathing
Emotional Breakdowns
TV Production
Junk Food
Bad Poetry
Whips
Skateboards
Music
Quantum Physics
String Theory
Swords
Sorcery
Alcohol
Porn
etc
oh yeah, some sleep gets shoehorned in everyonce in a while.
hows aboot you all?
*edit*
random comments form SGs and LGs make my day
my daily routine now consists of:
Retail management
Self Loathing
Emotional Breakdowns
TV Production
Junk Food
Bad Poetry
Whips
Skateboards
Music
Quantum Physics
String Theory
Swords
Sorcery
Alcohol
Porn
etc
oh yeah, some sleep gets shoehorned in everyonce in a while.
hows aboot you all?
*edit*
random comments form SGs and LGs make my day
brookelynne:
wake up
fall asleep wake
up again
emotional breakdown from lack of hope
music therapy
good poetry
emotional breakdown from lack of friendships
antisocial paranoia
music therapy
and fall asleep
yep.....
and then today
Anthony williams!!!
fall asleep wake
up again
emotional breakdown from lack of hope
music therapy
good poetry
emotional breakdown from lack of friendships
antisocial paranoia
music therapy
and fall asleep
yep.....
and then today
Anthony williams!!!
huny:
sleep sleep sleep
masterbate aka get in touch with my outer being
stare at photoshop all day attempting to create something beautiful for client who couldn't give an ish less about the effort I put in
talk to my boy on the phone and wish he was layin next to me
lots of chinese food and mountain dew
headaches
yours sounds more interesting
masterbate aka get in touch with my outer being
stare at photoshop all day attempting to create something beautiful for client who couldn't give an ish less about the effort I put in
talk to my boy on the phone and wish he was layin next to me
lots of chinese food and mountain dew
headaches
yours sounds more interesting
xoxo alexis