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Oh my...

Jon and I split. Well, I can't say whether I left him or he left me, but about two weeks after I wrote that last entry, he stopped making any effort to hang out with me or have sex or anything. I asked him about it a few times, and he insisted that he didn't want to break up, but then continued on with the distance.

I finally gave up and asked him once again, after two weeks with no sex and no effort on his part... he said he didn't want it to be based on sex, but not to be serious either. I said well then that leaves us at being friends I guess, and it was over.

Now I see him every so often, and seeing him reminds me of how lonely I've felt since it ended.

I've been depressed besides this as well. Another couple big breakdowns, lots of drinking and crying, and hating my normally adored time alone have consumed my last few weeks.

And my first B in college. That made me cry too. Enough points for an A, but lack of attendance fucked me over.

Finally got a job. At a liquor store. How appropriate.

On the plus side, baking has been fun in school. I made a perfect coffeecake, finally figured out why I could never make cookies right, and took out some aggression on baguette dough today.

I'm taking my chances on being on this site while in school. No one seems to have noticed. I guess as long as I don't look around all suspicious-like no one will question what I'm looking at.