akathisia

Ok so greg set up a user profile for me on the laptop so i will be able to check email and suicide girls a little bit more than i thought.

I still don't have much more positive to say since the last time i wrote in here. I am still depressed in a general sort of way, but i think it stems from lack of money and a lack of taking action in my life, though for the life of me i don't know what to do about either right now. I wrote a rent check and it keeps bouncing because the bank didn't process my paycheck in time and by the time it does get processed i am not sure there will be enough money for rent. I am so stupid about money.

I guess on a positive note i am starting the horrendously large task of eliminating more of my crap belonging that i find so hard to get rid of...that is something of myself i don't understand, why is it so hard? But anyway i am making a little headway and have found several books now that i don't need and would be loved much more by someone else. I am learning that if i haven't worn a piece of clothing in over a year i sould get rid of it, theoretically, but putting that in to practice is a little bit harder. I don't know why i am such a fool for clothes. I look like a dork so much of the time that it practically doesn't matter what i look like, but it matters to me and i don't know how to give up on some of those clothes a little.

Grrr, belongings, ugh

I think i am going to make pasta tonight, with capers and mushrooms in marinara sauce, and then i will sleep blissfully (until i have to go in to the bank early tomorrow to beg for forgiveness). Anyway, i will try to respond to those people that i usually do....take care everyone!

-Slie

edit: p.s. omigoodness

i'm spent!