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akasha823

Somewhere in the great beyond

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Tuesday Dec 15, 2009

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I just found out that my ex fiance died a few years ago. As much as I hated the way he treated me, I never in a million years would have wanted him to die so young. My heart is breaking for his daughter; I was a mother to her for 5 years of her young life and I cannot even begin to imagine what she went through and is still going through. I want to hold her and tell her I am sorry and just be there for her. But I can't. The way I left and the subsequent issues with her dad won't allow me to contact his family. And I know that his parents wouldn't want to put her through that pain- which I don't blame them for one bit. I know that he had Bipolar disorder and all that I have been able to dig up was that he died in his sleep and struggled with his disease.

I am just numb right now. I hope that he finally has some peace.
curioustomcat:
You might still write a letter to the parents - no matter the issues you had. Death transcends many worldly worries and your pain is heartfelt. In the true feelings you described is no scorn left and to know your feelings might even alm a bit of their pain - and who knows they might even tell the girl that she is still in your heart.

Death changes a lot of things...
Dec 16, 2009
giggles:
i am sorry for your loss
Dec 16, 2009

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