So yea, I've been gone for quite awhile. I can't say for sure that I will be back soon after this post. The way things are going, I go in and out of wanting to be social very quickly.
Things are not really much different than the last time. I am still questioning my faith and my whole purpose for being. I am still at a job that I really, really dislike. I am still single. And I really need to write, but I am conflicted because the good Christian in me thinks that I should not write anything dark and negative, while the other side of me feels that I just need to say what is going through my mind, this stuff is always dark and negative.
This has been a very long rut that I have been in. I am sure that my answers will be found through prayer and community. but sometimes it is so difficult for me to open up when I hang out with people from Church. I can be myself, but only to an extent because I am not sure how they would react to some of the things that I need to say.
Oh well.
How is everyone out there? Anything new going on?
Things are not really much different than the last time. I am still questioning my faith and my whole purpose for being. I am still at a job that I really, really dislike. I am still single. And I really need to write, but I am conflicted because the good Christian in me thinks that I should not write anything dark and negative, while the other side of me feels that I just need to say what is going through my mind, this stuff is always dark and negative.
This has been a very long rut that I have been in. I am sure that my answers will be found through prayer and community. but sometimes it is so difficult for me to open up when I hang out with people from Church. I can be myself, but only to an extent because I am not sure how they would react to some of the things that I need to say.
Oh well.
How is everyone out there? Anything new going on?
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giggles:
I like to read out all the bad stuff just to get it out and then I throw it away. And feel so much better
d_day:
I know exactly what that's like, especially now that I surf from work since things are so slow for us. But, here I am. There are thinkgs I can't get away with checking at work.