akasha823

There are so many different things that I have found trigger my need for change. I realized that the times where I did makes changes, was after feeling like I was backed against a wall with nowhere to go. And it became a survival mechanism. Ya know, sink or swim; fight or flight.

I have always dealt well with change because I have always wanted to improve my situation. The issue is that once the changes are made, I look back and if there are any casualties, I feel guilty.

I told my best friend that I was considering leaving SoCal. Of course she said she needs me and I need her. She is right; she is one of the reasons I haven't fallen off the face of the planet after these past 2 years of my life. But I just seem to keep spinning in circles here.

Like I said a few days ago. I am still kind of figuring out where I fit in all this. So, I am still looking for other places to live and work. I have found quite a few different jobs that sound good. Now I just have to get the courage to submit the resume. Am I really ready for all this, or do I just think I am??

Ah well, time to try to sleep.

XOXO