So the trip to Texas is pretty much over. I am sad to leave my Folks cuz I miss them so much.
And I am sad to go home because my already less than stellar living situation is going to get much more complicated once we get back.
But as I told MsJune, I have to go through the rain to know how good sunshine feels.
The fucked up part is that it seems like it has been raining on me for the past few years. I have seen a few rainbows, but all fleeting.
So I should arrive back in So Cal on Saturday. Sunday evening I am flyin to Nor Cal for the first of two business trips. I will be there for a week and then the following week, I am headed to Jersey.
At least that is 2 weeks away from the domicile.
For a recap to those who aren't aware.
My oldest bro and I rent my Folk's house. And he and I are close only because of the DNA we share and the close proximity in which we live. And his youngest two daughters (he has 3) are probably going to be living with us because their mother is worthless. I love my nieces with all my heart. But my bro is not the most responsible person in the world and I already know he is going to expect me to be around to babysit and pretty much be there to entertain them because he doesn't play with them. He sticks them in front of the TV and interacts with them when they talk him or it is time for them to eat. It has happened before and I am already frustrated. Granted he is not always like this, but it happens enough to piss me off because the girls deserve more than that. Although, since he has 2 girlfriends (who of course know nothing about each other) I am sure he will allow them to step in and "parent" when they are with him.
The whole scenario bothers me because of the crap I went through with JackAss and his daughter. And at this point, if I wanted to be a parent, I'd have had a kid by now. That is not to say that I don't ever want children, but I don't want to raise other people's children. Not unless, they were orphaned. But I guess that makes me selfish. And if it does, oh well. I cannot help how I feel. But it pisses me off that I feel like I have to step in when my nieces are in my presence. Why should they have to suffer because my bro is an idiot??
Right now, I just stay away and go home to sleep, shower, get a change of clothes and eat. I will more than likely make myself scarce when I get back home in 2 weeks.
We shall see...
Thanks for listening.
Hope you are all well out there.
And I am sad to go home because my already less than stellar living situation is going to get much more complicated once we get back.
But as I told MsJune, I have to go through the rain to know how good sunshine feels.
The fucked up part is that it seems like it has been raining on me for the past few years. I have seen a few rainbows, but all fleeting.
So I should arrive back in So Cal on Saturday. Sunday evening I am flyin to Nor Cal for the first of two business trips. I will be there for a week and then the following week, I am headed to Jersey.
At least that is 2 weeks away from the domicile.
For a recap to those who aren't aware.
My oldest bro and I rent my Folk's house. And he and I are close only because of the DNA we share and the close proximity in which we live. And his youngest two daughters (he has 3) are probably going to be living with us because their mother is worthless. I love my nieces with all my heart. But my bro is not the most responsible person in the world and I already know he is going to expect me to be around to babysit and pretty much be there to entertain them because he doesn't play with them. He sticks them in front of the TV and interacts with them when they talk him or it is time for them to eat. It has happened before and I am already frustrated. Granted he is not always like this, but it happens enough to piss me off because the girls deserve more than that. Although, since he has 2 girlfriends (who of course know nothing about each other) I am sure he will allow them to step in and "parent" when they are with him.
The whole scenario bothers me because of the crap I went through with JackAss and his daughter. And at this point, if I wanted to be a parent, I'd have had a kid by now. That is not to say that I don't ever want children, but I don't want to raise other people's children. Not unless, they were orphaned. But I guess that makes me selfish. And if it does, oh well. I cannot help how I feel. But it pisses me off that I feel like I have to step in when my nieces are in my presence. Why should they have to suffer because my bro is an idiot??
Right now, I just stay away and go home to sleep, shower, get a change of clothes and eat. I will more than likely make myself scarce when I get back home in 2 weeks.
We shall see...
Thanks for listening.
Hope you are all well out there.
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junnie:
Ohh sweetie, hold on a solution will present itself!! Have faith! You will not be a domestic slave, unless you want to! We will put our heads together and come up with something brilliant! Promise!
noctem:
Thank you 
Hopefully I'll see you at an event soon...
Hopefully I'll see you at an event soon...