akasha823

Another weekend gone...

I spent the day at a coffee shop doing homework and watching people in their own little worlds sitting enjoying their tea and java. Some surfing the internet, some watching the TV, others chatting and others reading the Sunday paper or a book. I am sitting in the corner thinking about the direction my life is moving.

You know after every break up- I will be sad, then angry and then reflective. With the last one, I skipped the sad phase. I am not sure if that will come back to haunt me or not- I am sure it will manifest through in a poem or tears at a movie or a deam that reminds of the situation.

I am reflecting now and examining every aspect of my life.

I am on the brink of a lot of milestones:

Not putting up with bullshit from a guy I am dating, witnessing a birth, graduating, turning 30- and who knows what else...

I feel like an emotional void. Other than the birth- I am not allowing myself to feel the emotions I am going through, which is totally uncharacterstic of me. I want to feel them. I want to wallow in them. And I can't. Maybe a long session at the gym will do the trick?


Hope y'all are well out there.

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