I believe that we all have several versions of ourselves, it is natural.
Today I came to speak specifically only from two sides of mine, my internet version (which is where I work) and my version outside that medium. The internet has provided me and offers me many good things until today, it is thanks to the internet that I live alone and carry out all my responsibilities. Before even thinking about wanting to be a SuicideGirl has always been a desire (I think 99.9% of people have this same desire), to be autonomous. Having my own business focusing on something that I love doing, that gives me pleasure, happiness and of course, money.
I like a lot of things and I've found myself working in several different areas, but then it came on the internet, it was on the internet that I met SG and that's when I decided what I wanted to do. In fact, I had been watching myself for some time, realizing some things I wanted to change, like self-esteem, feeling more powerful and confident, and I started working on it on my own. Changing the look, inviting photographic friends to take some photos with a more sensual theme, to bring it up and it worked!
Let's go back to the part where I met SuicideGirls haha this community came into my life at the perfect time, at exactly the right time! photography and internpretation have always been part of my life, as well as the alternative style, be it appearance or lifestyle, was the perfect fit! In my internet version I see myself, I see Ajalla, as my artistic identity. The sensual and powerful woman who conquers everything and everyone! This is me, this is part of me, and I put that side out with my work, creating rehearsals for SG, photos and videos in my onlyfans, etc.
My version off the internet likes to be more relaxed, with comfortable clothes, no makeup, having time just for her, meditating, stretching, smoking weed joint while sunbathing.
My version off the internet loves to stay away from the internet hahaha Being autonomous is great and also a
LOT of work. I think that in any area it should be like this but I believe that a sensual model, sex work and the like has to go after a thousand times more because normally people think it is an "easy" job, they don't understand how much time we invest in creating content , investing in lingerie and accessories to always deliver the best possible and still have dishes and clothes to wash, eat, organize the house, study and a lot of other things that are often not exposed on the internet.
So in addition to creating the content itself, investing in it, promoting it, managing it, we still have to deconstruct this idea to be more valued. It is hard work and very pleasant! for me it is an honor to be part of this and to be able to provide a little change in the world, my version off the internet is very much like that! I also want to build something different from the current job, I am going to study Social Work and Psychology to contribute in other ways to our society.
and that's all people! I hope you liked to know a little more about me
is that you? have a double life? lol
