Hey fuckers, just ripping out on my guitar, thinking of lyrics but that is the hard part. Drinking red wine and thinking about pale skin, biting and demonic dreams. So fucking, I think I'm going to dwell on otherworlds and light and Death, yeah, cause I'm a fucker that way. So fucking, anyway, be cool, take care and worship the old gods of a time...
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Well, I've got the next three days off from work, what to do, what to do. I think I should get a shower and go grab some tobacco from the smoke shop. My snakes and lizards need to be fed today. Maybe I'll get an oil change and some new windshield wipers. Sounds fucking exciting doesn't it!!!!!. I have no plans for tonight. I really...
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sarcasticmenace:
Happy New Year, hottie! 
On the top of the mountain the wolves are howling and I am playing my guitar. It is an orchestra of thier howls and my dark chord structures. The wind carries our compisition across the peaks and high into the starry sky. The roar of an avalanche Below adds to the sound, natures joining voice, booming as all fucking hell. Yeah, a god, me. I...
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abyssia:
i'm not sure this will make sense - but i'm pretty content with my level of discontent. being born? not so cool. being me? not so bad. yeah i struggle with myself, but if i didn't, i'd not be me.
i quite enjoyed this entry of yours. so poetic. avalanche...
i quite enjoyed this entry of yours. so poetic. avalanche...
Awake, Arise, or Be Forever Fallen!-----Lucifer addressing the legions after being cast out of heaven. John Milton's Paradise Lost.
Another day in the struggle. Another cloudy sky and more time to reflect on an uncertain future. I should write some fucking lyrics, maybe take my poetry book into work today to see what kind of lyrics the muse of the meloncholy can come up with....
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Another day in the struggle. Another cloudy sky and more time to reflect on an uncertain future. I should write some fucking lyrics, maybe take my poetry book into work today to see what kind of lyrics the muse of the meloncholy can come up with....
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abyssia:
we are not fallen.
lilmissmorbid:
How has the search for a singer come ? Did you decide ont he other girlie? I heard your howl last night and answered you with heavy breathing down the base of your spine. Did you get it?
If I dont talk to you before this. Have a Happy New year! And remeber:
If I dont talk to you before this. Have a Happy New year! And remeber:
We are going to feel empty, we are going to long for love, and some for attention. The struggle is one of light that they tell us is demonic. The only thing of heaven is denying who and what we are.........Fucking Animals, animals that ride waves of divinity. The world is not fucking black and white for creation knows not about the singular but about...
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abyssia:
i try. you know i struggle. thank you for taking the time to leave such a thoughtful and thought provoking comment for me. and thank you for getting preachy on my ass!
lilmissmorbid:
Love the new profile picture sweetie
Hmm I had to reread your jounral entry today.. You know if this is something you wrote from your self its truly amazing. You captured life in a short paragraph.
This is why I heart you so much,.
Hmm I had to reread your jounral entry today.. You know if this is something you wrote from your self its truly amazing. You captured life in a short paragraph.
This is why I heart you so much,.
Okay, I'm hungover, too much Merlot. I think I'm gonna be sick..........L8er........Aj
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sarcasticmenace:
Merry Christmas!
lilmissmorbid:
ditto.
hope things are better now
hope things are better now
Yeah so I just auditioned a chick for my next band. She has great lyrical content. I work with her, she is a fucking natural. When Her and I go to the bar she walks across the parking lot telling other employees to have a good night Dickheads. She walks into the lunch room and any group of guys she comes across she says, have...
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lilmissmorbid:
Okay whew.. Im glad you cleared that up for me. lol
Fuck what the family says about the girlie. If she can pull the job off fuck um its your band you desrve the best .. I will be online tonight around 10pm so if you get the chance come on so i can see your sexy ass.
Kisses and bites to you sexy he beast
Fuck what the family says about the girlie. If she can pull the job off fuck um its your band you desrve the best .. I will be online tonight around 10pm so if you get the chance come on so i can see your sexy ass.
Kisses and bites to you sexy he beast
abyssia:
ok, so if it's not what i think.... oh! i'll read lilmissmorbid....
whose family says what about her and why? and does it matter?
and yes, i'm a very bad girl. (grin)
whose family says what about her and why? and does it matter?
and yes, i'm a very bad girl. (grin)
Sunday, 2:00 pm. I leave for work in an hour. Right now I'm watching the football game. Eagles against Dallas. I've finally gotten around to reading Piers Anthony. I've been trying to read some shit by him for about ten years but I've been fucking procrastinating I guess. Three days off this coming weekend because of the Holiday, yeah Christmas. Man I'm going to get...
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What a fucked up night at work. It was one of those fucking nights where you realize that you might just work too hard and care too much about making some other fucker rich at your own sanity. I've got the song " Mannequin" Playing by Cradle of Filth. I've been thinking of this song all day so I fucking figure that it would calm...
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pretty_kitty:
dude its sooo fucking frezzin here! its just raining all the fucking time! i love the rain but hate the cold! ne way Cradle of Filth come from down the road to me, i didnt know they were big im america.
The UK is a pretty cool place really, i just fuck off to London for a day it takes like 20mins to central London from my house, and that makes me happy and less bored
yaya for London lol
hehehe ne way im off to get ready for this party
live fast die young x
The UK is a pretty cool place really, i just fuck off to London for a day it takes like 20mins to central London from my house, and that makes me happy and less bored
yaya for London lol
hehehe ne way im off to get ready for this party
live fast die young x
lilmissmorbid:
I am the same way with the drinking. especially this time of year I tend to get really depressed and psycho. And turn to the bottle. No amount of antidepressents get me through. So I know my reason for drinking... I hope you are still hanging tight and having a great time.. Friend still sleepin on the couch?
Hope you had a great weekend
Hope you had a great weekend
Hump fucking day, hooray. Its getting so fucking cold out. I can't stand the cold. I did get the romote starter for my car so now I just start my car from inside my apartment and when I go outside its all nice and fucking warm. I'm going to be all nice and broke this month, car insurance is due, I need new rotors for...
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abyssia:
Since my head is fucking busy being drunk and since you're my fucking friend, I thought I'd fucking send this to you.
Oh, and fuck that fucking forwarding part - unless you don't fucking want to.
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Oh, and fuck that fucking forwarding part - unless you don't fucking want to.
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lilmissmorbid:
That was super cool what you and your girlie said about me.. made me smile so fucking much.. I have said it before also that i think your girlie is hot and well you know how I feel about you sexy he beast.
You should do a punk metal band i would love to come hear you play. It sounds like its a passion of yours and that means alot.
Have fun this weekend sweetie and becareful.
You should do a punk metal band i would love to come hear you play. It sounds like its a passion of yours and that means alot.
Have fun this weekend sweetie and becareful.
i worship no god. i do worship the "godness" in all. that's what the old ones were about actually.... so i guess i get to them in a round about way.
i like your farewell, "l8er shits of a dying time." we won't be victims of this age. we are eternal.
and yes, i'm still very sick so if what i've said makes less sense than usual - you know why. maybe. sometimes i make more sense when my rational mind is clouded. heh. ever notice that?
pain lives on the riverside for those who don't jump in the water.