Life is awesome but occasionally appears to be a cruel punishment of sorts. If we were gods we could choose our paths and our own destinies. Most of the time though it appears as though we are players in a lottery of sorts, all of us given over to chance. I am always so looking for outside stimulation despite cost of adventure and so many other factors. To be numb is to survive. To be indifferent is to exist. Yeah, its bullshit talk but true in more ways than I care to get into. Am I depressed? Nope, I take drugs for that. Am I bored and sick of my currently chosen path? Fuck yeah. I can change it but would I really want to? Would I really dare to? I've drank too much, fuck it........L8er.
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I'm not so hardcore since I cracked my dome-piece last month. I haven't had any of the green for over a month!
I look forward to reading your ode. I love the way you write with no inhibitions, so it should be enlightening to say the least.
By the way, your current journal entry describes my life to a T. Sans drugs, unfortunately. I need to find an alternative method to fight the depression!