Okay so this a update on the last week or so.
So most recent valentines day sucked like always lol. I just worked came home had some rum and am waiting to pass out so i can go to work again tonight lol. Gawd the graveyard shift sux. Neway along those lines the girl that was fucking with my head has been caling me the last couple days. She called me tues. at my brothers basketball game sobbing cause she had the worst day of her life (kind of a drama queen lmao). She keeps on the phone for 45 minutes crying and i try my best to comfort her but, well i am kinda mad at her. I gave her the best advice i could but i aint so hot with those situations. then last night she calls me, wakes me up, talks for 5 minutes says she has to go, and she'll call back later. And of course she doesnt. So i am assuming she is gonna call again tonight *sigh*. I am probably to nice and i should just ignore her, but at the same time if she is such an emotional wreck i dont want to not helpd (does that make sense lol). I dont know.
And i am now take "natural happy pills" Sam-e, 5-htp, and st johns wort. I was talking to my boss/friend about my downs lately and she's kind of a hippie so she got me this stuff. I had a real low over the weekend and i think im "lucky" i made it through. I guess. It was the closet i have been to ya know. Neway. They are helpping a little. It's hard to describe, it curbs the depression doesn't reallly make me happy or anything, but own really hard, and they are making me really tired. I'll se how it goes for a little while if this doesn't work out i'm probably gonna get some proffesional help. *sigh* I guess the only plus is i haven cut myself in about a week so i guess thats one plus. neway if u read all this thanx for the time. i'll talk to u all later take care.
p.s. i will finally be getting my hair finished next week so i will post some new pics so u don't have the grumpy half asleep ones up there. lmao.
So most recent valentines day sucked like always lol. I just worked came home had some rum and am waiting to pass out so i can go to work again tonight lol. Gawd the graveyard shift sux. Neway along those lines the girl that was fucking with my head has been caling me the last couple days. She called me tues. at my brothers basketball game sobbing cause she had the worst day of her life (kind of a drama queen lmao). She keeps on the phone for 45 minutes crying and i try my best to comfort her but, well i am kinda mad at her. I gave her the best advice i could but i aint so hot with those situations. then last night she calls me, wakes me up, talks for 5 minutes says she has to go, and she'll call back later. And of course she doesnt. So i am assuming she is gonna call again tonight *sigh*. I am probably to nice and i should just ignore her, but at the same time if she is such an emotional wreck i dont want to not helpd (does that make sense lol). I dont know.
And i am now take "natural happy pills" Sam-e, 5-htp, and st johns wort. I was talking to my boss/friend about my downs lately and she's kind of a hippie so she got me this stuff. I had a real low over the weekend and i think im "lucky" i made it through. I guess. It was the closet i have been to ya know. Neway. They are helpping a little. It's hard to describe, it curbs the depression doesn't reallly make me happy or anything, but own really hard, and they are making me really tired. I'll se how it goes for a little while if this doesn't work out i'm probably gonna get some proffesional help. *sigh* I guess the only plus is i haven cut myself in about a week so i guess thats one plus. neway if u read all this thanx for the time. i'll talk to u all later take care.
p.s. i will finally be getting my hair finished next week so i will post some new pics so u don't have the grumpy half asleep ones up there. lmao.
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Do you have symptoms for when you're likely to fall apart? I know it's going to happen to me, I can sense small changes in my attitude and behaviour... if you can pick up on that sometimes you can head it off before things get too bad, while you've still got enough willpower to say "Fuck that, I don't want to depressed"... well I don't know, sometimes I can do it. It's hard, but if it works...
Anyway, I hope things go well for you.