My pictures are gone. I took them away. I thought it was silly. I could have gone to a sex toy workshop OR a bellydance workshop tonight but I did neither. I was in the computer lab doing work *sigh*
This is bad... I almost cried in class today. Someone did a project about "Into the Woods" and I was all upset. I ignored it when I saw Jack on screen, but when I saw Cinderella I just watered up. If I know you personally and you don't know why that upsets me so, you can ask.
I've vowed not to touch anyone without having an intimate relationship. Which basically means I've sworn off intimate physical contact altogether. Friendly hugs. That's it. No kissing, and definitely nothing more. I'm in no mood for it, and even if I was, I'm saving it. We all know what I'm hoping for behind all this, but I'm also doing it until I'm over that pain. I do not act rationally when I'm in this kind of pain; in fact, I can be quite a whore. So I'm hitting the other extreme. It's the only way I roll.
Look at my busy schedule:
I have an acapella concert tomorrow
Christmas shopping and a second acapella show on Friday
An extra class and work on Saturday
And practicing a scene for acting w/ my partner on Sunday.
Also, I have a large paper due next week that isn't writing itself. I mean, I stare at the pencil and paper, right on the floor together, but they don't do anything! I even put the book next to them so they can look up everything they need. Pencil and paper are fucking lazy. Maybe if I paid them they'd write it. "Hey guys, I found a penny in the cafeteria...guess who it's going to!" Still no response. Bastards.
What am I even talking about? I'm rambling so I A. don't have to do any work and B. Hold off crying some more.
blah blah I'm done.
This is bad... I almost cried in class today. Someone did a project about "Into the Woods" and I was all upset. I ignored it when I saw Jack on screen, but when I saw Cinderella I just watered up. If I know you personally and you don't know why that upsets me so, you can ask.
I've vowed not to touch anyone without having an intimate relationship. Which basically means I've sworn off intimate physical contact altogether. Friendly hugs. That's it. No kissing, and definitely nothing more. I'm in no mood for it, and even if I was, I'm saving it. We all know what I'm hoping for behind all this, but I'm also doing it until I'm over that pain. I do not act rationally when I'm in this kind of pain; in fact, I can be quite a whore. So I'm hitting the other extreme. It's the only way I roll.
Look at my busy schedule:
I have an acapella concert tomorrow
Christmas shopping and a second acapella show on Friday
An extra class and work on Saturday
And practicing a scene for acting w/ my partner on Sunday.
Also, I have a large paper due next week that isn't writing itself. I mean, I stare at the pencil and paper, right on the floor together, but they don't do anything! I even put the book next to them so they can look up everything they need. Pencil and paper are fucking lazy. Maybe if I paid them they'd write it. "Hey guys, I found a penny in the cafeteria...guess who it's going to!" Still no response. Bastards.
What am I even talking about? I'm rambling so I A. don't have to do any work and B. Hold off crying some more.
blah blah I'm done.
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We dont need nun of therm der sexun.
(the usual witty but stupid remark from joshey with a chance of being followed by something serious ).
well dear, ive proably said this many times before but ill always be here for you to bitch at.We all know you need it, and i know for fact what your writing here is only the tip of the iceburg of what your feeling. So when you get home just let me know, if you need someone to talk to, icecream, or whatever ill make it happen. okay!!
(hey lookie it was serious)