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Update: BOYS STILL SUCK! OMG! Okay. Just one boy. It's 2:12 in the morning. Brendan just called me. I totally do not understand that lad. I left him a message tonight about possibly doing something like rock climbing on Thursday. When he called tonight and I asked him if he could understand my message because my phone was being all fucked up - he said he hadn't gotten it. Meaning, he called me on his own free will. Fabulous.

My question is...WHY?! What is this guy's motivation? I really don't understand. I'm not thinking poorly of myself. I am totally down with how I look - sometimes. I don't base my attraction to people on looks, but that doesn't mean I think others do the same thing.

I am not a fucking Barbie. He is totally GQ. Why the fuck is he not with a Barbie? Either he's looking to cheat on his girlfriend, he's gay and just wants a friend, he's just looking for sex - or he's confusing and I don't understand how he could possibly like me because he knows hardly NOTHING ABOUT ME! EXCEPT THAT I SUCK AT BLACKJACK!

Oh my god this is fucking making me nuts.

Previous Update: I am so busy. I want a hug so bad that I am pretty much willing to do anything. I think my need of hugs probably is directly related to why I am so fucking psycho about guys lately. I am not going to get a hug from any of these guys though...just mango chai and phone calls at 4 a.m.