aiden

ahahahaahaha!!!! i am so awesome! so i fugured out how to erase history and the address bar on our internet server here at work! so when my asshole boss is gone i can check things out, but i have to remember to cover my tracks after im done hehehehe

ok... so life isn't getting better... in fact i feel like it's getting worse. someone really close to me has been acting weird lately and it scares me. i dont know whats going on but i don't like the way things are going.

here's how a day in the life of me has been going for a few weeks now. wake up at the crack of dawn, rush to get dressed for my shitty job. drive in the carpool lane by myself to work so im not too late, sit at work while my brain turns into mush. get off work 8 hours later, and sit in traffic to get home. when i get home i feed the animals, try to neaten up the house, then i watch the tube... by myself, not talking to anyone, then i fall asleep b/c im so burnt out.

im not looking for "pick me up's" by writing this in my journal... it just feels better for me to get it out of my head. seriously, i dont need a pity parade because in the grand scheme of things im not starving, i have a place to sleep, and i have semi-clean clothes. my parents love me and i have friends. i just dont feel right.

forgive me if i seem to be bitching about nothing. anyway...

someone bought one of my DVD's yay huh? im stoked about that shit!

*aiden*

added later:

do you ever make yourself sick? no, seriously. i mean, when im feeling fucked up emotionally... i get sick. my stomach is upset, i feel like im gonna all of the time, i can't eat, and sometimes i get the shits... eww... hahah. but it pisses me off! i mean if im not eating anything how can i throw up or get the shits? what is coming out of me if i dont eat? honestly, do you get sick when your fucked up in the head?

answer me dammit.