aiden

thanks to everyone who checked out the new set. isn't it just great? Sawa did a fucking fantastic job shooting the set! when we got around to shooting the sn had just begun to set and the light shining from the sunset played soooooo well with the gold hues in my bra and the fresh blonde hair. i am just super duper impressed!

i ordered a digital camera finally! digicam yay digicam yay! its a "canon elph sd300"... 4 megapixels and shiot. the last digicam i had got plopped in the toilet... my ex and i were fighting and it flew out of my purse. i guess it wanted to go for a swim... well when i get this damned thingy (hopefully it comes in the mail tomorrow) --damn snail mail-- i will take tons of pics and im gonna try to post a new picture everyday... we'll see how that goes but thats my goal.

my mind is doing fucking backflips.
i need a job. i dont want a job. im broke and im tired of it. my hair is a little grown out now.

so i think my chances of getting hired are greater if my hair looks a little more normal and stylish rather than the way i like it which is trashy and scary.

i want a job at a strip club. i want to be a cocktail waitress cos i dont have to get nekkie but i can still look sexy and make that money. i need money. im almost tempted to strip but i dont know how to dance for shit and i dont think i have the balls to strip live in front of people... strippers make tons of money... and i need some money but i have tons of insecurities. im soooooo broke i hate it. i want to be able to go out and buy new shoes is i want to or get buy some records... something. anyone have any hook ups for strip clubs in the so cal area? i want to be a cocktail waitress and see what the stripping world is like...

a sugar daddy would be cool... i could use some jewelry and fur...


i know this might sound silly but im kinda feeling inferior... seeing all of these drop dead gorgeous girls with professional ass photo sets. the more and more girls that become suicidegirls the more and more they start to look like normal model girls... i dont wanna offend any of the girls so i think i'll just shut my mouth right now.