i've been neglecting you guys hardcore. i feel as if i dont write as often as i should but im just so god damned lazy hahah... it seems like as i get older (like i'm so old, right?) my patience wears thinner. i hate waiting for things to load up. im kinda spolied... i've been used to having a cable internet hook up and i've been reduced to dial up since my computer broke down. blah blah blah i know i know. the moral of the story is im going to try to post a journal more often
so... until you guys ask me questions i can post answers to i guess im just gonna ramble on about the real life soap opera i live.
my weekend was pretty boring, which has become an every weekend occurrence. i had found myself turning into a hermit. can you believe it? im only 21 and already i'd rather stay at home than go out. well i guess it's not really that i dont want to go out but its that i am bored with backyard parties. funny thing about it is that im not comfortable with the fact that i dont enjoy parties anymore. every friday and saturday night im all ready to go out and party but as soon as i get to the party i want to turn around and go somewhere else. i think the only reason im being a hermit is because i dont have any money to go out and do other things than free backyard parties. i need a job. i really have no room to complain about not having a job because i should be going out and applying. im gonna complain anyway, hahaha. no, i wanna go out to bars and shit with good people. go to the 80's clubs again and shake my groove thang! hah, im also uber interested in checking out shit like going to the opera, theatre, and other activities such as those. i want to be "wined and dined"... a friend said to me the other day "awwwwwwwwwwww you want some romance" and at first i thought 'fuck you' but then i realized he was right. i do want some romance and it seems like it doesn't exist nowadays. maybe it never existed? maybe its just a dream hollywood created. i dont think any of my friends would be interested in going to a wine tasting event at a vineyard. or what about going to a museum or something? i mean do single people do these kinds of things or is it just for families and older couples? in other words, are there people from 20-35 yrs old who go to these sort of gigs?
my friends dad says "thats why so many young women like yourself date older men because they are more experienced and educated" i know that is a true statement but are ther any younger guys who do those sorts of things and arent geeks? i met this guy who seemed perfect: good job, education, intelligence, good looks, responsible, fun, funny. it didnt work out but he was THE only guy who i've met who had all of those things going for him. is this a rarity? should i have clubbed that perfect guy and dragged him back to my lair? hahahahahaha... i would so do something like that too!
or is it that these guys exist but they dont like me? sometimes i forget that i could be a little too wild for some people. im just like everyone else. im not really mean, im not cold hearted, and im not a fucking criminal. (well i guess i am actually... damned top tobacco...)
oooooooooooh this sucks. i wrote so much more than this but my coptuer froze and i didnt save it. fuck. im not gonna re-type eveything else i wrote. see! i fucking hate dial up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aiden
so... until you guys ask me questions i can post answers to i guess im just gonna ramble on about the real life soap opera i live.
my weekend was pretty boring, which has become an every weekend occurrence. i had found myself turning into a hermit. can you believe it? im only 21 and already i'd rather stay at home than go out. well i guess it's not really that i dont want to go out but its that i am bored with backyard parties. funny thing about it is that im not comfortable with the fact that i dont enjoy parties anymore. every friday and saturday night im all ready to go out and party but as soon as i get to the party i want to turn around and go somewhere else. i think the only reason im being a hermit is because i dont have any money to go out and do other things than free backyard parties. i need a job. i really have no room to complain about not having a job because i should be going out and applying. im gonna complain anyway, hahaha. no, i wanna go out to bars and shit with good people. go to the 80's clubs again and shake my groove thang! hah, im also uber interested in checking out shit like going to the opera, theatre, and other activities such as those. i want to be "wined and dined"... a friend said to me the other day "awwwwwwwwwwww you want some romance" and at first i thought 'fuck you' but then i realized he was right. i do want some romance and it seems like it doesn't exist nowadays. maybe it never existed? maybe its just a dream hollywood created. i dont think any of my friends would be interested in going to a wine tasting event at a vineyard. or what about going to a museum or something? i mean do single people do these kinds of things or is it just for families and older couples? in other words, are there people from 20-35 yrs old who go to these sort of gigs?
my friends dad says "thats why so many young women like yourself date older men because they are more experienced and educated" i know that is a true statement but are ther any younger guys who do those sorts of things and arent geeks? i met this guy who seemed perfect: good job, education, intelligence, good looks, responsible, fun, funny. it didnt work out but he was THE only guy who i've met who had all of those things going for him. is this a rarity? should i have clubbed that perfect guy and dragged him back to my lair? hahahahahaha... i would so do something like that too!
or is it that these guys exist but they dont like me? sometimes i forget that i could be a little too wild for some people. im just like everyone else. im not really mean, im not cold hearted, and im not a fucking criminal. (well i guess i am actually... damned top tobacco...)
oooooooooooh this sucks. i wrote so much more than this but my coptuer froze and i didnt save it. fuck. im not gonna re-type eveything else i wrote. see! i fucking hate dial up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aiden
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cochar:
Older guys do tend to be better, they're not as immature and are more ready for a real relationship.
opppunk:
Man, it sounds like you're lookin' for some gray-haired cardigan wearing old man.. Hahaha! I think its true that us young guys dont know shit about romance (Ha! thus the crass language), but I go to art galleries and museums.. wine tasting, however, you'd be better off with mr. cardigan and his golf buddy. I think you're looking for a feeling more than someone with a specific personality. I dont know where im going with this.. Heh!