aidan

Hummm. I just noticed that my ex's facebook says that her anniversary with her new boyfriend is August 1st. I'm just going to assume that's a mistake, considering that she was with me that day. Ever since she left, we've continued to speak, but I haven't heard from her all week, hence why I found myself browsing her profile. I don't think I've done anything wrong, but I do feel somewhat ignored, and have been wondering if she has decided to just stop talking to me. I just wish she'd say so instead of leaving me guessing. I'm finally getting to a point where I'm starting to let go. I hate the idea of not being a part of her life in one way or another, even if it is just friends. I've been trying hard to view her as just a friend, and have even tried to hang out with her a few times, but each time she has either cancelled or just said no. I hate to be one to give up on anything, but well, I think that's all I can do right now.

I'm still convinced that I'm not "boyfriend material" at all, but I have at least been hanging out with a new girl lately. We get along extremely well, and have quite a lot in common. I'm not sure if it'll turn into anything, but it's at least nice to have some good company. I'll admit, I might, sort of, kind of, maybe like her a little bit. I should probably take advantage of that, considering how disappointing I find people to be in general. It's extremely rare that anyone actually catches my attention. That story almost always tragically ends with lots of rejection on my part, but I'm pretty rad dammit! I at least deserve a chance!

I should eat something. All I had for lunch today was a pathetic little hot pocket. I kind of feel like I might die right now. Probably because I ate a hot pocket.