aidan

Ever since a certain Sunday afternoon a couple years ago, I have known exactly what I wanted. I tried so hard and waited so patiently for my chance, and just when I thought I might finally get that chance, I lose it instead. I hate being me sometimes. I have too many bad traits that I think ruined it. I guess I didn't really realize I had such bad traits until then, and I have no idea how to fix them. It has become very obvious that I will never be wanted in return again, so now I'm just trying to figure out how to let go. How do I just stop wanting? Is it even possible when I've always been so sure about what I want? I've never been one to give up on anything I want, but this time it looks like I have to. I give. I lost. It's time to let go.