Grrr.
As mellow and laid back as I am, I'm a very emotionally damaged person, and I like to think I can't be hurt any more than I already have been in the past, but for some reason I can't seem to forget about how shitty my ex was to me during the last month of our relationship. And the fact that she left me for her douchebag ex boyfriend kind of fucks with me a bit. I mean, he treats her like shit all the time and is just an all around cocksucker, yet he was the better choice. What kind of person does this make me? Somehow I was worse than that? I was always the person she came running to when he was making her feel like shit, and I have done so much for that girl it's ridiculous. Yet, she can just so easily shit on me and not even worry about it. Fuck that. Next time he's hurting her, ignoring her, or just all around treating her like shit, and she comes running to me again, I'm just going to tell her to fuck off. She put herself in that situation, and if that's what she want's, so be it. I'm not going to be there to rescue her anymore. I may be a nice guy, but I know when I'm being walked on, and I won't just sit back and take it.
On a positive note, I saw Creature Feature tonight and they were pretty freakin' badass. Oh, and I invited a pretty new lady friend out to the show and she actually showed up! And I didn't scare her away! She may even love horror as much as I do, which is a lot by the way. I might have to keep this one around.
Hmmm, it's 7:30 in the am and I'm still awake. I should do something about that.
Goodnight, to the very few who may actually read this.
As mellow and laid back as I am, I'm a very emotionally damaged person, and I like to think I can't be hurt any more than I already have been in the past, but for some reason I can't seem to forget about how shitty my ex was to me during the last month of our relationship. And the fact that she left me for her douchebag ex boyfriend kind of fucks with me a bit. I mean, he treats her like shit all the time and is just an all around cocksucker, yet he was the better choice. What kind of person does this make me? Somehow I was worse than that? I was always the person she came running to when he was making her feel like shit, and I have done so much for that girl it's ridiculous. Yet, she can just so easily shit on me and not even worry about it. Fuck that. Next time he's hurting her, ignoring her, or just all around treating her like shit, and she comes running to me again, I'm just going to tell her to fuck off. She put herself in that situation, and if that's what she want's, so be it. I'm not going to be there to rescue her anymore. I may be a nice guy, but I know when I'm being walked on, and I won't just sit back and take it.
On a positive note, I saw Creature Feature tonight and they were pretty freakin' badass. Oh, and I invited a pretty new lady friend out to the show and she actually showed up! And I didn't scare her away! She may even love horror as much as I do, which is a lot by the way. I might have to keep this one around.
Hmmm, it's 7:30 in the am and I'm still awake. I should do something about that.
Goodnight, to the very few who may actually read this.
beau:
Umm yeah I never go to bed until am hours or after. humm... Im on an odd sleeping schedule for sure.