aidan

I'm not sure why I even try to celebrate my birthday anymore. Every year it's the same. I try to get so many people to come out, and only a few people actually show up. I do appreciate the few people that do show up though. They are awesome. I guess I've just always wanted a fun, memorable, crazy birthday party with everyone there, because I've never really had that. I think it's just the time of year. Either people are out of town with their families for the holidays, or they're just too worn out from the holidays to do anything, and are saving their energy for new years. I understand and all, but dammit, it still makes me sad having to sit here by myself in my apartment. I think next year I'm just gonna treat it like any other day. I'm done setting myself up for disappoinment. God this sounds selfish.