Long distance relationship are hard.
I love my girlfriend very much. We've been dating on and off for quite a few years now, and I simply adore her. She's beautiful and intelligent and good hearted and passionate and a million other adjectives.
But she's in England. And I live in Toronto, which makes for a very long distance relationship. She's doing her master program in London, and will be done in August, which is great. Except that she's been offered a scholarship to stay in England and do her law degree.
Our original plan was to move to Ottawa together in September, but this new deal further complicates and already complicated situation. A scholarship to go to a law school in England is nothing to scoff at, but at the same it, it means two more years of not seeing her at all. I can't afford to go to school in England, I need to be living there for two years while not in school to qualify for domestic rates. It took me years to go back to school, and I'm afraid if I stop now, I won't start again.
Which means that for the next two years, we'll be living on different continents, neither of us able to afford to visit the other. Neither wants the other sacrifice their schooling opportunities for the other, but how long can we be apart without seeing each other until we're just friends again?
I realize how lucky I am to have her in my life. She's this amazing woman who I'm lucky to have met, let alone call my girlfriend. Yet at the same time, is what we're doing to each other fair to either of us? I just don't know.
I know I'm just whining, that there are people who make long distance relationships work. And right now, ours is working to. Because there was an end to the separation in sight. Who now what will happen in another two years. She already told that she feels distant from me emotionally, not through a lack of effort on either of us' part, it just...happens.
I have a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach every time I think about it. I don't want, but I can't help it.
Grrr, why does life have to be so frakin' difficult.
I love my girlfriend very much. We've been dating on and off for quite a few years now, and I simply adore her. She's beautiful and intelligent and good hearted and passionate and a million other adjectives.
But she's in England. And I live in Toronto, which makes for a very long distance relationship. She's doing her master program in London, and will be done in August, which is great. Except that she's been offered a scholarship to stay in England and do her law degree.
Our original plan was to move to Ottawa together in September, but this new deal further complicates and already complicated situation. A scholarship to go to a law school in England is nothing to scoff at, but at the same it, it means two more years of not seeing her at all. I can't afford to go to school in England, I need to be living there for two years while not in school to qualify for domestic rates. It took me years to go back to school, and I'm afraid if I stop now, I won't start again.
Which means that for the next two years, we'll be living on different continents, neither of us able to afford to visit the other. Neither wants the other sacrifice their schooling opportunities for the other, but how long can we be apart without seeing each other until we're just friends again?
I realize how lucky I am to have her in my life. She's this amazing woman who I'm lucky to have met, let alone call my girlfriend. Yet at the same time, is what we're doing to each other fair to either of us? I just don't know.
I know I'm just whining, that there are people who make long distance relationships work. And right now, ours is working to. Because there was an end to the separation in sight. Who now what will happen in another two years. She already told that she feels distant from me emotionally, not through a lack of effort on either of us' part, it just...happens.
I have a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach every time I think about it. I don't want, but I can't help it.
Grrr, why does life have to be so frakin' difficult.
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I wish you two absolutely nothing but the best. You're a stand up guy and I'm certain she's a fantastic gal.