Will I ever find happiness? I have so many ups and downs, just a minute ago I was overjoyed to be living my life how I want, moving in the right direction and going somewhere and now I've been pulled back into being miserable I feel like I might 
and I'm sad why couldn't I be the one to just move on, have the luxury of being able to forget and block it all out and avoid, turn love off like you would a lightswitch? I wouldn't have the heart to leave him hurting like he has me and there's no way I would ever stop being friends with him he said himself that he still wanted to be friends that he didn't want to lose me completely well so much for that bullshit. I just see him as a liar now but that doesn't help the pain.
THIS SUCKS!
and I'm sad why couldn't I be the one to just move on, have the luxury of being able to forget and block it all out and avoid, turn love off like you would a lightswitch? I wouldn't have the heart to leave him hurting like he has me and there's no way I would ever stop being friends with him he said himself that he still wanted to be friends that he didn't want to lose me completely well so much for that bullshit. I just see him as a liar now but that doesn't help the pain.
THIS SUCKS!
I got out of my engagement about 5 months ago and that was so hard on me, even though he lied and cheated, etc.
I believe that everyone has a soul mate out there somewhere.. its just a matter if you want to keep looking?
A movie that I think is utterly amazing..
Dirty Love
Jenny McCarthy is in it, and that movie has helped me a lot.
Take care, darling.
PS
Its not a porn movie. haha