Born into this cruel world I once thought was without reason.I was born to a mother who hated me wanted me dead,A mother who drank her life away daily through the form of Barton Vodka and cases of draft.I had a older brother who was spared the abuse,he recieved it but he escaped because of her choice to leave him one cold December day with...
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nurse_kaotic:
(jaw hits floor) Holy shit thats deep 
Just imagine the thought of going to a club for the first time.To feel the rush of being able to dance with vast amounts of people and have a good time.To feel the rythmn inside the mind and body even before you get to the heart of that magic.My first night truely out with my cousin and her many friends.It was lovely and exillerant to...
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deriecherie:
we should be friends 
your dog is cute. what breed?
your dog is cute. what breed?
nurse_kaotic:
wow what a nite, how you been
Getting fucked up to end my cancer inside
nurse_kaotic:
Thats awful
Thats awful I wanted to express one deal of happiness.The suicidegirls are the best(ess) and they have the awsome(est) people on the site.And the models are all so beautiful and show vast amounts of rawr(ness) tehe.Rawr(ness) is totally a new word mwhahaha
The tired fingers type again as usual.I am well fixiated with a verse that beats into my skull "one more night with you alive surely means I will die" I made it up but some reason it makes me a bit sad.Because in all truth I am the warrior..I am strong for humanity and I will fight its many battles as if I ever can.I...
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I found out this last week.I have been told what me "sickness"is even though I knew what it was when it all started.I mean you would think throwing up blood and having spots appear around your lungs wouldn't be enough.But it was to me.I found out that I have lung cancer.I have know since 2 months ago.I mean it does truely suck but I am...
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Lets tast the hand,To have this big oily hand shoving foo inside.Feeding constantly and sufficate the lugs with bullshit.Lets rip and pull out that had and see who it is truely tied to.Wonders what kindo f people would feed us lies to beeter their very existance.......Clueless surely there aren't people like that out there.And if thay are then were are the nI want to find...
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I just cried my little hazel eyes out.Pfft I am wondering what the heel does the term family mean now-a-days.Ha I want to go and lie in a bed of soft grasss and watch as time leaves my body.i want to be the stars to be endless and vast.Loveing and careing though.I am the crimson tear duct that flows golden dreams from broken themes.I am...
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ari:
... what a beautiful complilation of thought...
"Niden thtien alla"
Beneath these stars,while waiting for you,
I'm spending my time believing,
That love is the lava that carries us,
That makes even the cold iron glow,
Beneath these stars,I adore you,
At the window I am watching you,
When do you love me and make me strong,
Your names been written in my heart,
Beneath these stars,while waiting for you,
I'm spending...
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So fucking upset right now.Like a 2 weeks ago I left home against my fathers wishes to come and be a part of my cousins life.I mean she is the only one who seems to give a damn about me.For so many fucking years have we been denied axcess to each other.Feeling we were pulled apart for stupid reason.so I found her a bit ago...
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punkazz:
I am sorry that you are having such a bad time. I have never been close with my cousins, they were all older then me or younger then me. I was always so jealous that my younger sister, who is only 3 years younger then me had all the cousins and she is still close to several of them. I hated holidays because I always ended up sitting there reading a book while everyone seemed to be having so much fun.
As I have gotten older I have realized that you must make the best of the situation for yourself. I have 2 younger sisters and the sister that is 14 years younger then me I find that I am closer to her which is nice when we are together we have so much fun. She respects my opinion and asks for it often.
As a parent, I do feel that your dad should learn to respect you as an adult. My mom always tried to be my best freind instead of a mom. I had plenty of freinds what I neede was a mom and I still have some resentment towards her for that. I still feel like I am the responsible one in the family and had to learn how to take of myself. Out of sisters I am still a daddy's girl which is so weird because growing up we fought all the time over stupid things. My grandfather died a couple of weeks ago and dad looked at me for support not my mom or my sisters could say the right thing and I was able to help him. One day your dad will look to you when you least expect it and your relationship will be different you will crossover and be the child that has turned into an adult. When that happens he will realize that he will continue to live through you.
Take care sweetie.
Cari
As I have gotten older I have realized that you must make the best of the situation for yourself. I have 2 younger sisters and the sister that is 14 years younger then me I find that I am closer to her which is nice when we are together we have so much fun. She respects my opinion and asks for it often.
As a parent, I do feel that your dad should learn to respect you as an adult. My mom always tried to be my best freind instead of a mom. I had plenty of freinds what I neede was a mom and I still have some resentment towards her for that. I still feel like I am the responsible one in the family and had to learn how to take of myself. Out of sisters I am still a daddy's girl which is so weird because growing up we fought all the time over stupid things. My grandfather died a couple of weeks ago and dad looked at me for support not my mom or my sisters could say the right thing and I was able to help him. One day your dad will look to you when you least expect it and your relationship will be different you will crossover and be the child that has turned into an adult. When that happens he will realize that he will continue to live through you.
Take care sweetie.
Cari
