agonistes_vental

Someone asked me a question not to long ago,the question was"If you say you are a healer,and you do such things for others,why is it that you have nothing to show for it?"Well since I have ehard his question I have evaluated it well and thought it over in many different fields within and the thing is I choose not to gain that of wealth,I choose not to be side barred from what it is I am reaching for,and though people may wonder at my intentions with my verse,with why I am so open and giving,I only can say that my life is many things,though I regret little and seek truth,and the passion of living as a calling from within to inspire and help others,as I take that pain in many away,as I take that hurt and,fear away from those I embrace,those I hold and protect,I choose to sacrifice bit by bit within me to help those.I choose to let the weight of the world press me close to insanity for it's my way of doing what is needed,what is right,and also what is part of me.Quality in the perception of spirit makes it worth it,for though many wonder how is it one who loves and cares for so many can fall down into that suffering and not have anything to pull out,I say I do,I hold on to the vast memory of all I have saved and helped,I hold on to the purity within,though I have been made offers with money and other things for teachings and assistance I deny them for I do not want my lfie to end up not having meaning,and not to let that what has been given to me to be used as a way to profit,instead I do so with honor at what I do.I am gifted in many ways and though the world weighs on those alike I pull on knowing my life has meaning,So in that honor,virtue,reason,and purpose remain pure and true,I've gained alot in my life and proud I am of it all,If it is meant for me to live happily then so be it otherwise I am in that war within the spiritual concept of life and I choose to take the harsh road in order to help those who have fallen into that road in life.I only wish that other could see at it is.