agonistes_vental

I live to heal,I breathe to save people,and walk for spirit,I give everything to help those in need.But sadly in this time of need I am alone.I just got back from helping my cousin,she used me ,I forgave her and moved on I came home to death,decay,and horrid memories,But I've met so many good people since my arrival.But as of a hour ago I found out the horrid news.My motherwhich whom I was staying with is moving,her husband is cruel,he is mean and treats her liek a animal,she is going to Flordia,and I sadly have no where to go.I am alone for my brother is trying to get me up there to him in Missouri.I have not a job cause here in town there aren't any and well my father will not accept me if I haven ot a job,and also my waysI fear I might be homelss,I fear I will lose conteact with my clients,I fear I might have to live amongst darkness again,I worry so much and feel the need to vomit,and bleed.II do good but is it noticed from Gret Creator?I wonder but no worries I am trying to sift through the flour.I have many friends but after I help them in there own ways,they sift off and abandon me.It's something I am used to,a healer gives and recieves nothing from their duty to life.But even in times of need a healer walks alone as I and I have fallen and I need someone now.A friend to pick me up and be light,for as a wounded healer I feel quite horrid,for I feel as if I failed in all honest.I do so much for so many but whe nI am in need I feel as if I am ignored and pushed away.all I ask for is a friend and guiding light.I love you alland even as I fall I still am here for you all,I care deeply for each and every person who walks amongst me.I hear the cries at night,the fight in the wind and the love at heart.Soa,Soar with me.I need some love