agonistes_vental

As my life shines full force,as my eyes show the way of what is the very existance of Corey Pridorium,even I fall to the darkest nights.For within every Healer there lies a everlasting pain of being human.I serve humanity,I consume all that is pain,hurt,and suffering to release there victims into a new life of hope.I taste death around most corners and accept my very lifeline.But as today shows no matter how I give myself to earth even I have salt that is needed to cleanse my wounds.I do love my hoem but its truely a bittersweet factor for it will kill me if I stay and and when I leave I always long for it.It could be my death and yet it's my sanctioned paradise.I love it.
I've accepted my past,allowed it to guide and teach me yet nowas day three rolls around my heart weepsor something and yet I cannot find what that is.I hate it but I will find it.I think it is due to my family for they cannot know who I am yet I want them to but I know I will be judge to harshly so I close my mouth and bite my own tougue.I wish it was different but it's whatever.We cannot help everyone.But let me say it's also do to a bleeding heart.For I am a Healer yes but my heart longsfor that companion who will travel with me to do my bidding,to walk with me as a equal,loving and compassionate.Yet in alot of senses I am beautiful and I am damn proud of who I am I just long for the day that some of it will be seen.I can't complain though for I am one hell of a 18 year old.Hahha