The joy of waking up to the sounds of cars and the sounds of the enslaved human race it's quite a lovely thing to have to deal with.I am quite calm now this moment in time for since I have been in South Carolina I have heard his voice.His ailing voice hidden in the angered waves crashing into the shoreline.His howl in the night as the owl swiftly steals another meal.All around me his voice is guarded and hidden and not available for duality.I have been so restless so irritated and angered,for I have longed to feel the energy flow through my viens and allow me to soar with my elders but I have not been allowed yet.I have pleaded but not heard until lst night.....
As I was fierce again due to me being so damn dependent on my cousin,as I grew to hate having to bow down and accept what is given I lay there restless and ready to fight.Red flashes and boils me,covers me like the poison of lies and I am only truth.But within her taking that call away from me not allowing me to talk to the very salvation that calms me soothes me and touches me I am a beast.I grew horrid and burning coals lit ablaze my rage.I wanted to rip tear and produce pain not to the world but to myself.To rip away my flesh and bleed to force Vental to shine beautifully.(Now if you dare read this know it's practiced well in my family for we are the land the forest and wild.We are Cherokee and thus its my blood I give to the land)But I resisted.But as I laid i nthe chair trying to sleep I finally heard the call.Finally my cries were heard.As I felt the touch rivetting my flesh pulling me I hd to go.As I packed my sacred items for usage and grabbed my jacket my cousin freaked telling em to stay wondering why I needed to leave and where was I going.Well I ignored her and left.I didn't know where I was going or what would happen but I felt a rush,a good long awaited rush calling m into the night of 2 a.m I crept along listening for direction to go and I found it the woodlands called me and I went water splashed and covered my flesh as I was being caressed.
I used my wings to call forth the winds the channeling of a fellow brother's energy to call forth a old ancient energy that was Bluffton.And then as I opened my body up and Vental came forward it began.All grew quite and then as the stars parted I felt fire in my legs my heart to errupt and then It called to me one last time.I was one with spirit again the rush,the pain,the love,and compasison overwelmed me it was amazing so amazing as I closed my eyes I saw what it was like then ago long ago .And I felt it in me the olden days it was amazing.I wanted it I cried for the happiness inside filled me I remember I was so soothed and sleepy finally calmed but I don't remember how I got home I just remembered I awoke on the floor of the room.What a morning I am so happy.
As I was fierce again due to me being so damn dependent on my cousin,as I grew to hate having to bow down and accept what is given I lay there restless and ready to fight.Red flashes and boils me,covers me like the poison of lies and I am only truth.But within her taking that call away from me not allowing me to talk to the very salvation that calms me soothes me and touches me I am a beast.I grew horrid and burning coals lit ablaze my rage.I wanted to rip tear and produce pain not to the world but to myself.To rip away my flesh and bleed to force Vental to shine beautifully.(Now if you dare read this know it's practiced well in my family for we are the land the forest and wild.We are Cherokee and thus its my blood I give to the land)But I resisted.But as I laid i nthe chair trying to sleep I finally heard the call.Finally my cries were heard.As I felt the touch rivetting my flesh pulling me I hd to go.As I packed my sacred items for usage and grabbed my jacket my cousin freaked telling em to stay wondering why I needed to leave and where was I going.Well I ignored her and left.I didn't know where I was going or what would happen but I felt a rush,a good long awaited rush calling m into the night of 2 a.m I crept along listening for direction to go and I found it the woodlands called me and I went water splashed and covered my flesh as I was being caressed.
I used my wings to call forth the winds the channeling of a fellow brother's energy to call forth a old ancient energy that was Bluffton.And then as I opened my body up and Vental came forward it began.All grew quite and then as the stars parted I felt fire in my legs my heart to errupt and then It called to me one last time.I was one with spirit again the rush,the pain,the love,and compasison overwelmed me it was amazing so amazing as I closed my eyes I saw what it was like then ago long ago .And I felt it in me the olden days it was amazing.I wanted it I cried for the happiness inside filled me I remember I was so soothed and sleepy finally calmed but I don't remember how I got home I just remembered I awoke on the floor of the room.What a morning I am so happy.