agonistes_vental

I am sorry that you are having such a bad time. I have never been close with my cousins, they were all older then me or younger then me. I was always so jealous that my younger sister, who is only 3 years younger then me had all the cousins and she is still close to several of them. I hated holidays because I always ended up sitting there reading a book while everyone seemed to be having so much fun.

As I have gotten older I have realized that you must make the best of the situation for yourself. I have 2 younger sisters and the sister that is 14 years younger then me I find that I am closer to her which is nice when we are together we have so much fun. She respects my opinion and asks for it often.

As a parent, I do feel that your dad should learn to respect you as an adult. My mom always tried to be my best freind instead of a mom. I had plenty of freinds what I neede was a mom and I still have some resentment towards her for that. I still feel like I am the responsible one in the family and had to learn how to take of myself. Out of sisters I am still a daddy's girl which is so weird because growing up we fought all the time over stupid things. My grandfather died a couple of weeks ago and dad looked at me for support not my mom or my sisters could say the right thing and I was able to help him. One day your dad will look to you when you least expect it and your relationship will be different you will crossover and be the child that has turned into an adult. When that happens he will realize that he will continue to live through you.

Take care sweetie.

Cari

Waow !

Aww. It is really awful to be the one who always gives up everything for someone else. You need to do something for yourself. It is great to help people out and fight for a couse but at the end of the day all you have is you. So you need ot focus on that as well. Cheer up!