agonistes_vental

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So we are cleaning the apartment up becasue the building owner is comming over in a few days to take pictures of the place and what needs to be fixed.So we have been cleaning up the whole damn place and its a unsettling feeling.I mean I moved from Georgia to help my cousin out in South Carolina with her son.My father isn't speaking to me...
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Born into this cruel world I once thought was without reason.I was born to a mother who hated me wanted me dead,A mother who drank her life away daily through the form of Barton Vodka and cases of draft.I had a older brother who was spared the abuse,he recieved it but he escaped because of her choice to leave him one cold December day with...
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Just imagine the thought of going to a club for the first time.To feel the rush of being able to dance with vast amounts of people and have a good time.To feel the rythmn inside the mind and body even before you get to the heart of that magic.My first night truely out with my cousin and her many friends.It was lovely and exillerant to...
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Getting fucked up to end my cancer inside

I wanted to express one deal of happiness.The suicidegirls are the best(ess) and they have the awsome(est) people on the site.And the models are all so beautiful and show vast amounts of rawr(ness) tehe.Rawr(ness) is totally a new word mwhahaha

The tired fingers type again as usual.I am well fixiated with a verse that beats into my skull "one more night with you alive surely means I will die" I made it up but some reason it makes me a bit sad.Because in all truth I am the warrior..I am strong for humanity and I will fight its many battles as if I ever can.I...
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I found out this last week.I have been told what me "sickness"is even though I knew what it was when it all started.I mean you would think throwing up blood and having spots appear around your lungs wouldn't be enough.But it was to me.I found out that I have lung cancer.I have know since 2 months ago.I mean it does truely suck but I am...
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Lets tast the hand,To have this big oily hand shoving foo inside.Feeding constantly and sufficate the lugs with bullshit.Lets rip and pull out that had and see who it is truely tied to.Wonders what kindo f people would feed us lies to beeter their very existance.......Clueless surely there aren't people like that out there.And if thay are then were are the nI want to find...
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I just cried my little hazel eyes out.Pfft I am wondering what the heel does the term family mean now-a-days.Ha I want to go and lie in a bed of soft grasss and watch as time leaves my body.i want to be the stars to be endless and vast.Loveing and careing though.I am the crimson tear duct that flows golden dreams from broken themes.I am...
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"Niden thtien alla"

Beneath these stars,while waiting for you,
I'm spending my time believing,
That love is the lava that carries us,
That makes even the cold iron glow,

Beneath these stars,I adore you,
At the window I am watching you,

When do you love me and make me strong,
Your names been written in my heart,

Beneath these stars,while waiting for you,
I'm spending...
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