aghori

Havent been in the ghetto for a while... It's been like two weeks now that I've been a refugee. My place is on ice. The pipes have frozen over so no water coming in and it's so damn cold that the windows are covered with ice on the inside. I have just visited the place to water my plants. Even that is a bitch... I...
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Now this is getting ridiculous!!! got evicted from my apartment because I dont want to look at meth-heads and other immoral junkies around my yard... One dick was trying not to pay me his loan... I made it imposible for him and he had to pay... And because of that I get thrown out from here. But I have been looking for an apartment from...
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It is christmas soon. I have gotten presents for people this year. Some books, clothes and music. I didnt have time to make anything of silver. Well, I dont have a workshop right now. Silver I do have. Soldering equipment I would need to borrow from someone...
Anyway, this winter has been great so far. Full of enjoyable moments. Looking forward to year 2010. It's...
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Nice. I have an appointment to physiotherapist. We are going to find out if there is a way to ease my pain. I am sick of starting my mornings with painkillers just to be able to stretch my back to it's flexible own self. Pfff.
So far nothing has helped. Feelings of extreme frustration when I cant get out of bed nomally but have to...
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Now I am back to my normal rhythm. I can sleep, I feel energetic and living. So happy that the cloud I get every winter has faded. This time it was very easy, light and not so deranging mist I had my head in. It lasted only a month this time. Maybe it is because now I made some firm and life changing decisions. I...
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I couldnt sleep last night. My back is really getting worse. I had to change position every 5 minutes because of the pain. And if that wouldnt be enough to ruin my sleep, there was a shooting at a parking lot nearby. And those idiots didnt even shoot themselves... So they might be doing it again.

Why all the violence?

Why would androids dream of...
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"I would hang myself if it wouldnt kill me.!!!"

I hope that is enough to picture my frustration

Tired. Cant sleep. Feeling fine.
I love this state of mind. Everything seems to ooze its way on and on. Time never stands still. Time does not exist. It can be seen only in clocks. Everything should go according to sunlight and weather... So in Finland we need to sleep through the winter.... So valerian-extract and good night.... See you in March

Starting feel great. I baked some superstrong spacecakes... After I had baked them I ate three cookies and I totally freaked out!. I mean serious paranoia and panic attacks!!! I nearly called my friend to ask him "where should I go now for help?". Three is way too much. One is enough and two is manageable but hree is too much.... Too bad that I...
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Niin kauan kuin min muistan, minua on vituttanut. Ei se ett yliptn vaan vituttaa vaan se miten maailma pyrii. Vituttaa nlnht, vituttaa sodat, vituttaa selknpuukottaminen, vituttaa valehteleminen, vituttaa se ett mulla on liian lyhyt takki, vituttaa talvi, vituttaa se ett vituttaa. Muistan kun olin masentunut, sillon masensi kun vitutti. Nyt vitutuksesta saa voimaa. Se ei en ole kaiken tiell niin kuin se aikaisemmin vaikutti vaan...
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