aghori

Today was, and still is, an emotional day. My co-workers friend had a heart attack and his brain was without oxygen for over half an hour. He is still unconscious and the brainscan showed damage to his occipital lobe. And other parts of brain. The doctor had said to his wife that she shouldn't expect anything good. No miracles this time baby. So everyone at work were talking about it because everyone knew him in person or just knew who he was. The atmosphere was a bit gloomy. And on top of that misunderstood a message I got from my so-called(really complicated situation) girlfriend (from other country 200 miles away). First I was shocked, then heartbroken after that simply sad and depressed(felt like I had lost the only reason I live). And after thinking the issue with a clear mind and asking what she had meant with it I feel relieved and I have tears of joy in my eyes.

And I still hope and wish that I could be able to live steady life and have everything neatly in balance. Not that I would ever live like that but it would be nice to handle the changes of situations, to always have a back-up plan. I've really never thought anything through before doing it. I experience in doing. But safety first, girls and boys. No harm to anyone.
And soon I am going to feel enlightment. What a day