aghori

Pain is virtually gone. I finally got an appointment to a dctor. he prescribed me medicine that helps me. my back is reallyinjured badly and it cannot be operatee..i am 30 and I take opiates to get through the crippling pain that makes me powerless enough that I can't do anything.. Well it's not that severe all the time, but sometimes it so. But we...
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Chronic intake of THC...

I have a chronic backache. Severe backache.

heap of ganja... visiting a friend. walls here seem to get closer and closer... rooms are smaller.. doorways are tighter.... it is life. and I enjoy it


everyday is a part of this meaningful meaninglessness... ahoy

Though i am happy with my new "home"... an appartment on the third floor... the top floor... of this building... . - I am moving to a better home my own house just me living in that building dont need to think about the volume of the music when no one is listening... and the yard is big and ..... havent seen it without snow....
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I am happy with my new home!!!

I am Relieved!!!
Finally I got an apartment from that northern city I have wanted to move to for ages. But now that I should have been packing my things up, I've been sick. Yes I have the swineflu. Quite harsh actually. I haven't had the flu in ages so it's nice to have the real deal. So hardcore bedrest for me... I have won...
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Havent been in the ghetto for a while... It's been like two weeks now that I've been a refugee. My place is on ice. The pipes have frozen over so no water coming in and it's so damn cold that the windows are covered with ice on the inside. I have just visited the place to water my plants. Even that is a bitch... I...
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Now this is getting ridiculous!!! got evicted from my apartment because I dont want to look at meth-heads and other immoral junkies around my yard... One dick was trying not to pay me his loan... I made it imposible for him and he had to pay... And because of that I get thrown out from here. But I have been looking for an apartment from...
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It is christmas soon. I have gotten presents for people this year. Some books, clothes and music. I didnt have time to make anything of silver. Well, I dont have a workshop right now. Silver I do have. Soldering equipment I would need to borrow from someone...
Anyway, this winter has been great so far. Full of enjoyable moments. Looking forward to year 2010. It's...
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Nice. I have an appointment to physiotherapist. We are going to find out if there is a way to ease my pain. I am sick of starting my mornings with painkillers just to be able to stretch my back to it's flexible own self. Pfff.
So far nothing has helped. Feelings of extreme frustration when I cant get out of bed nomally but have to...
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Now I am back to my normal rhythm. I can sleep, I feel energetic and living. So happy that the cloud I get every winter has faded. This time it was very easy, light and not so deranging mist I had my head in. It lasted only a month this time. Maybe it is because now I made some firm and life changing decisions. I...
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I couldnt sleep last night. My back is really getting worse. I had to change position every 5 minutes because of the pain. And if that wouldnt be enough to ruin my sleep, there was a shooting at a parking lot nearby. And those idiots didnt even shoot themselves... So they might be doing it again.

Why all the violence?

Why would androids dream of...
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