aghori

Today was, and still is, an emotional day. My co-workers friend had a heart attack and his brain was without oxygen for over half an hour. He is still unconscious and the brainscan showed damage to his occipital lobe. And other parts of brain. The doctor had said to his wife that she shouldn't expect anything good. No miracles this time baby. So everyone at...
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I have tickets for both of Skinny Puppy's concerts in Poland. Feels good to get out of Finland, even if it's only for a week,. I have had severe symptoms of boredom now that I've not been able to travel outside Finland for a quite long time... I've had to move in a new city just to experience something new, I've picked up skydiving as...
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this is what happens when you let life take you where you are really going. I never studied enough to do the work I really want to do. I want to be a doctor. But I have no education...at all.
So now I start working at this place where drug-addicts and alcoholics can spend time sober, And I am the one coming up with things...
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the summer finally came!!!!

It's damn hot here and I love it soon my sleeve will be finished and I can start another one, but I have to get a piece on my throat. In a week I'll be suspended for the first time and I am waiting for it drooling Though I am a bit nervous cause I am going to jump out of...
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Hair of the dog..... I don't remember when was the last time I had to treat my hangover with beer. Now I have to. I was drinking absinthe yesterday. Some Slovakian red absinthe with an alcohol content of 80%... Fucking crazy stuff. I don't drink nowadays very often, maybe only twice a year, so the effects were drastic. The spiral starts at the first sip...
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I was starting to feel lazy, worthless and tired. But that's all behind me again 'cos I found a new hobby which suits me perfectly. I started skydiving... That's what gets me off now. I might say now that acid, DMT and other stuff you can fuck your head with don't get me even close to the levels skydiving does... And I just have started...
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Chin up and feeling better. Didn't lose my faith in humanity. Just scarred it a bit.
I pack my bags again and let the road travel with me. Can't stay still now or the pain comes back.
Have to chase ... just for chasing.

And I know I will be happy. Some day

I am so sad. Everything went down the drain. My plans, my hopes, my feelings. I wake up every morning to cry.

I feel that I've been used and cheated. I was afraid for a long time to get in a relationship because I always get hurt, but this time I thought it would be different. But same ol', same ol'.

Again I created a...
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Spring really makes me happy!
This kind of happiness I havent experienced in a long time. And of course, I am in love
Feeling strange, because she is so far away from me and I still feel her presence everywhere...
Why do I always fall in love with people who are not from Finland. Every time I fall in love, she is just going back...
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Etch-A-Sketch
Spring in a new city. Love it. After a depressing and eventful winter I feel like a newborn. No need for my old life anymore. It took too long for me to realize that I need to start over somewhere else. So I lost it and burnt most of the bridges behind me. Some regrets. Not that I wish for something to have ended...
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I think I am going to die soon. A few days a go I was drawing at my kitchen table. And just like that I woke up under the table with a nosebleed... I didnt feel like I would have banged my face on the table or something. Just like out of the blue. I think I just passed out and then started bleeding from...
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Hello everybody! I hope you all are feeling happy and good

I have an issue at hand right now... I am going to move America. Why there?... I dont know. Ive never been there. But most the things I consider good and rich in Our World come from America.

And most of all I need to get out of here.This place sucks.... I used to...
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