aghori

Aaaaand now I have a HANGOVER... severe one my friends... And I am quite glad that I drank so much on the past weekend. Now I am stressfree. For a day. Then I am back in the hell I live in. Today I felt happiness when I was walking from my friends place back home. It was very windy and it was snowing quite hard......
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Binge...

I have been drinking for two days now. Had a little sleep last night. For like 2-3 hours before I woke up to drink a bottle of beer with one sip. Then I just said to my friend who is passed out on the couch now "So I ruined this day also so its just best to continue drinking...."

I am an alcoholic, I...
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Listening to Johnny Cash. Sounds just like I feel. And I feel great. I feel that I might even get over this shit I am going right now...
I lost my job and as I am so impulsive with everything I am that with money also which means that I don't have money to pay my rent or anything else for that matter... Fuck I...
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Hello everyone...
I feel great. For the first time in ages... I fell in love And as usual, this shit is complicated. I live in Finland and the woman I fell in love with lives in Ukraine. She was just visiting Finland for few months on a work-related trip. Every day I feel more and more that I really have born in wrong place. I...
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Hey, everybody have fun, love thyself and others. Everybody around you who you haven't even met. Let's all wish for a better year 2011. Let's all have a pleasant holidays and visit the calendar again until year has gone and we love to do it again. I don't party on new years eve.. Just quiet and peaceful time with pleasant and inspiring company. Few joints...
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Tomorrow I am going to visit my parents. I'm going to be there over Christmas and going to have a peaceful New Years Eve with few friends. I haven't been in my hometown in a long time and I think I will see it with different eyes cause my hate to that place has faded. I left the place for a reason and everything has...
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i love life. I was almost depressed and powerless only week ago but now I am again ready to stop a truck with my bare hands. Everything started ti click on its place and i found my place to make things possible again. Well, everything is possible always but I just to find the right way to look at things again.
It's great that I...
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I am condemned to drift. And it's okay. As my situation is slowly building I realise a lot of myself that I hadn't had chance to recognize. Who we are is not the same now as it was ten years ago or shall be after ten years have passed. I feel like I have been and still am in a constant breaking point. Not like...
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Nothing gets me down. Difficult times will pass. Everything is temporary.

Now I am lost. Plans getting destroyed, wishes and hopes crushed. Nothing seems to co-operate with me now. Anxiety slowly building up. Hard times. If it was up to me I would sell everything I have and go to India for six months and see everything again with clear vision. But, slowly but surely my life is turning around to the direction I intended. So...
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Visions of the future. And the giant chasm of time in between this and then. And because time is relative as is everything else so is the dream of what will be in the near future. But the drive that pushes me forward to the next phase in my life has never been as focused and clear sighted as is now. I already made some...
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I feel happier than ever. So much has happened to me and everything has been good or great. I love you all.
You know who you are! All of you!!!