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Saturday Feb 12, 2005

Feb 11, 2005
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This never happened to me, just something I wrote around a few lines I thought up while I was chatting with someone.

One more time....

second fiddle to someone who doesn't deserve her

the all too familiar pain in my soul greets me once again

saying "my friend, this is the way it was meant to be"

that same old story, stagnant like waters long since still

gone, nothing but loneliness as my company

left to my devices, my thoughts return to you

memories long since past come to me in a bittersweet rush of pain and ecstasy

among my remiss, an emptiness grows inside of me

I can hear the sounds of the next room, loudly through the walls which are too thin to mask what I dread to hear

the thump, thump, thumping I hear is her discarding my love

unused and unwanted it grows sickly, poisoning my stomach and burning my soul

the thumping is my heart, the sigh of pleasure its fissure

nothing is left for me here, I leave without a word, pausing at the door

rain is falling outside, I cant remember the last time the clouds broke

its a long road home


Something I just commited to paper a while ago. Pretty depressing. It's funny how some things come to your mind so easily while what you seek eludes you.

Still needs a lot more work.

One of my friends was going to CAC last semester. She was majoring in education and planning to teach high school or elementary. Now she quit school and is working full time so she can marry her "sweet heart" and save up to go to beauty school. Jesus, what a fucking waste of potential. I know she could of been a great teacher and might have made a difference in someone's life. Now though, she's going to be painting people's nails for the rest of her life.

I don't have anything against beauticians but she could do so much more than that. It saddens me to know that she's going to throw somethning meaningful away so she can marry her retardo boyfriend. They've got that cliche idiot plan that kids our age make when we're in love.

"Oh I know, but I'm saving up to to go to beauty school and he's going to join the Army. Then we're going to have a delightfully white trash existence while I rear the youngins' and he gets fat and beats the hell out of me!"

But hey, I can't do anything about it, and don't think I would want to do anything anymore if I could. I'm sure it will work out (note: no, it won't) because 18 year olds are ready to get married. Who needs to experience the world when you can have a husband before 19?

People are such idiots.

And I Keep Driving...
thedarkness:
That is why I waited until I was twenty-five to get married. tongue
Feb 11, 2005
phorrest:
yeah. a bunch of people that i graduated with are already married and pregnant. its so weird.... i wonder whats going through their heads...
Feb 13, 2005

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