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First off, THANK YOU! to everyone who said such nice things about my last post Im really flattered, noones ever said anything like that to me before. Love you all

I miss having someone I can talk to...
I miss getting lost in someones eyes...
I miss having someone to wake up next to...

I need to find love...

It proberly sounds weird coming from a guy, but I really miss holding hands and just sharing silences. You know you've found someone when you can just share silence without being uncomfortable. No, Im not gay... which is what people seem to think. Saturday night, out in brum: Saw this stunning girl a few times through out the night, made eye contact, smiling etc. Though I didnt have the courage to actully say anything, let alone make a move. (I end up just getting really shy and babbling pretty much incohearently, then excusing myself and hiding) So, anyway, towards the end of the night, just finished talking to one of the girls on stage (sorry I cant remember your name, but your clevage was mezmorising) and this girl comes up and starts chatting with me. Then, before I even have a chance to put my foot in my mouth she asks me if im gay...? "What!?" Kinda taken aback I say no and she looks a little miffed: "I thought you were?"...Not really knowing what to say here and wanting to break the silence: "So did I... for a bit. But then I found out about the prohibited standards of hygene...and all the bloody dancing!" she laughs, says ok, kisses me on the cheek and walks off. Leaving me slightly dazed and confused, I head back to the bar.
Now, why do I look gay?... Or more to the point, why did she think I was gay. I wasnt wearing any pink. (Sorry for that broad rationalisation there) I was wearing a black suit, black tie, black shirt and coverse. I looked fuckin' hot come to think of it Well, 'acceptible' at a push then. But either way... WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! If anyone can shed some light on this please do!

In other news:

My best mate Si' got punched in the balls while in the pit to Hatebreed and had to sit down for about 2 hours... He's yet to find out it was me. (shhhhhh!)

I also pretty much single handedly destroyed his garden and covered the back of the house with mud when I bought a load of fireworks and planted them upsidedown all round his lawn and lit them. As he's trying deperatly to sell his house, he wasnt overly chuffed to see his back garden riddled with craters and resembling a bad day in Bosnia. Sorry dude!

Feeling pretty lonely (like you hadnt noticed)

I havent slept in a few days. Well, I think its a few days, Im not actully sure because I cant remember the last time I slept.

I can feel things going from bad to worse.

help