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Tonight, I was at my friend Max's apartment and he thought it would be a good idea to start drinking at 10 AM today. So by the time I got there he was totally wasted, like not making sense and falling on the floor. Then he went to the football game and the drank some more at halftime, then after the game drank some more. I went to another friend's house on the hill to watch the game, which wasn't on TV. So we watched a movie and then Max called me to go back to his apartment about 10 pm. When he called me, he told me that he called my house (in Littleton) and asked my mom if I was there. By the time I get to his apartment, he had drank even more and was laughing uncontrollably on the floor. Then he wanted me to drive him and Elie (his roommate) to hill at 11:30 pm, so that they could go to a party and drink some more. I told him that if he wanted to go to the hill that he and Elie should walk. I walked them half way to the hill when Elie started peeing in a bush on campus. That's the time that I said screw you guys I am going home.

All though out the day both Elie and Max were totally wasted and kept pushing alcohol on me. Beside pushing alcohol on me constanly, everyone that would come into Max's apartment, Max would introduce me and then tell them that I didn't drink. So besides Max and Elie telling me that I should drink I had every single person in Max's apartment ask me why I didn't drink and then they told me how great drinking is. Now I recongize that Max and Elie were drunk, but it still pissed me off.

To be honest I don't really have a good reason not to drink, but if drinking makes me act like Max and Elie, I am fine not drinking. I feel that everyone has the right to do what they feel like, but you shouldn't force others to be like you. I don't mind having a drink that I like, but I refuse to drink cheap beer just to get wasted.

I think that the reason Max drinks to get drunk, is that I think when he is drunk he can finally be himself. When he is sober, he is always worried about what everyone thinks about him and so he watches what he says, what he wears, what he looks like. But when he's drunk he doesn't worry about that stuff and he becomes himself. Same with Elie.

I use to worry about that stuff, but now I just say fuck it and I am who I am. Maybe I have pissed off some people with this atittude, but I really don't care anymore. This is who I am, and I am not going to put up a fake front or act differently in order to impress or befriend someone.

I am not a lemming, but saying that would be a rebelious cliche, now wouldn't it.