Man, I just don't know what to think of anything anymore. These past few months have been such a fucking rollercoaster, I can't tell up from down and left from right. It's true that I've realized things about Krysten. There are some things that make a relationship with her difficult. Maybe we weren't really "meant to be."
However, I cannot fathom how I could be with anyone else. The world is big and I am young, so I dunno, maybe there is someone out there with whom I'd be more compatible. but man. We have our differences, but we have so many similarities.
She actually cares for me, which, truth be told, surprised the shit outta me because I thought I totally lost her to apathy and indifference.
She doesn't know what she wants, and I guess therein lies the problem. She wants to be close with me but she also wants time apart. She wants to be close to me but she wants personal space. She wants to be close to me but she wants to be independent. I think these can all co-exist. I think we can be close and still experience time apart, personal space, and independence. Even if we're just friends, I think it's possible.
I love her and she will always have a special place in my heart no matter what. no matter what. no matter what. Even if things go so incredibly sour that I cannot even picture her face without feeling sick, she will still have a special place in my heart.
I don't know what she wants, and neither does she. As far as I know as of now, we're going to try and be friends and see how things go from there. If anything happens, it needs to be organic. That's how things stand as of NOW. Who knows what may come. I want things to be okay. I want things to be okay. I want things to be okay. I want things to be fucking OKAY. Why can't things just be okay. What a weird time in my life.
I suppose if she wanted to get back together, I would say yes, but we'd have to move back into things gradually and slowly. I think this situation has fucked us both up, so I don't think we would be able to jump right into anything. I don't think that's going to happen, though. I think we're going to be friends, and I think we're probably going to stay friends. but who knows, really. who really knows. I just want things to be okay. I want there to be an understanding. That's something kind of difficult to achieve when nobody can really understand anybody.
However, I cannot fathom how I could be with anyone else. The world is big and I am young, so I dunno, maybe there is someone out there with whom I'd be more compatible. but man. We have our differences, but we have so many similarities.
She actually cares for me, which, truth be told, surprised the shit outta me because I thought I totally lost her to apathy and indifference.
She doesn't know what she wants, and I guess therein lies the problem. She wants to be close with me but she also wants time apart. She wants to be close to me but she wants personal space. She wants to be close to me but she wants to be independent. I think these can all co-exist. I think we can be close and still experience time apart, personal space, and independence. Even if we're just friends, I think it's possible.
I love her and she will always have a special place in my heart no matter what. no matter what. no matter what. Even if things go so incredibly sour that I cannot even picture her face without feeling sick, she will still have a special place in my heart.
I don't know what she wants, and neither does she. As far as I know as of now, we're going to try and be friends and see how things go from there. If anything happens, it needs to be organic. That's how things stand as of NOW. Who knows what may come. I want things to be okay. I want things to be okay. I want things to be okay. I want things to be fucking OKAY. Why can't things just be okay. What a weird time in my life.
I suppose if she wanted to get back together, I would say yes, but we'd have to move back into things gradually and slowly. I think this situation has fucked us both up, so I don't think we would be able to jump right into anything. I don't think that's going to happen, though. I think we're going to be friends, and I think we're probably going to stay friends. but who knows, really. who really knows. I just want things to be okay. I want there to be an understanding. That's something kind of difficult to achieve when nobody can really understand anybody.