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I made my decision, and while I know it was the right one, I am still very scared about things to come. I've been very stressed lately and I don't really know how to deal with it. I don't like to be in my apartment ever but I have nowhere else to go. I'm weary about attending SGC events again. I don't have a confidant, just people who are condescending and belittling. I wish I knew the things I do now before I left Arizona, wish I knew I would end up back there anyway. I need a new living situation.

I need a white padded room with a padlock on the door, and me on the inside.

My new life goal is to have my own island. I don't think it's too farfetched. It will have barbed wire fences and attack dogs. Privacy is a virtue.

I want my brain to....just....stop.


I also removed anything involving me being nude.... I am now for one persons eyes only. <3 I want to continue to take pictures, if anyone will have me. And if my work schedule will stay persistent enough that I can make solid plans to do such.