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Monday Oct 22, 2007

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A conversation tonight opened my eyes.


Since landing back in Crete my mind has been in flames. So much to think about. Things that unraveled and unfolded faster than I could imagine. Emotions flew, money flew out the door, hope was shattered while at the same time new doors were opening. I am completely under a spell. Chicago has taken me by the throat and won't let go. I'm home. Those words mean more to me than ever before. This is where I belong. This is where love meets happiness, and where adventure meets me.

I've been meeting people who have something to say. This is new to me. I enjoy being able to go out and drink myself silly with them, and then the next day sit down for coffee and have an actual discussion. I'm falling in love with each and every person I have met.

But all the while I have been creating my new life in my old home, I had been preoccupied with problems of the heart. It was never a big deal, but my feelings were hurt and I lingered on them. Now that I look at it, those feelings should never have been there.

Someone I will love to the day I die told me something tonight that threw me back. It was so obvious but it was exactly what I needed to hear. "Relationships are simple. People complicate things." ..went on to say that only people that aren't right for each other have complications.

EXACTLY! God! Why couldn't I get that through my head before? Maybe I just needed to hear it from the right person. I feel so much better. Put things into perspective.

No more lingering on the wrong ideas. I'm working with what I have in front of me.

Bring on the memories. smile


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I need a job. Anyone in the area...if you know anywhere hiring (preferably not in the food industry) let me know. I'd like to work downtown seeing as I intend to live up there no later than next summer. I don't possess any super skills, but I can work a register like it's nobody's business (although I am avoiding that part of retail as well). Um, I am a certified dog groomer, so if there are any privately owned Dog Salons hiring that would be swell. Office work maybe? Or even things I can do from home?

Any help is much appreciated. Being stuck in the burbs without transportation most days makes it hard to see whats out there past what Monster.com tells me.


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sauda:
Halloween Night? Maybe. I have to stay a maybe cause I don't know how exhausted I'll be. If I feel like I do right now, it's not going to happen. I'm super nauseous 24/7 since the partay. I got subUrbia's invitation to come out and hang with you on Thursday, which I'd love to do, but I've got a ton of driving to do the next morning... and again about the no feel good tummy... I'm a lame ass. blackeyed
Oct 23, 2007
salome:
I can't thank you and the rest of SG Chicago enough. smile
Oct 23, 2007

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